Have more chance winning the lottery 🙈

[MrsH17]

Second month of trying naturally after failed FET. Honestly don’t think I have it in me. It’s too stressful. It brings back all the bad memories of trying naturally a few years ago. Getting chemical pregnancies, false positives and late periods.

All my time is spent wondering if I have ovulated or if I am pregnant. My husbands sperm count is so severe that I really feel it would be easier to win the lottery than get pregnant naturally.

I really had hope for us. I got all the vitamins, ovulation sticks and fertility gels but I just feel it’s all pointless.

Is it only me that weirdly finds ICSI easier than trying naturally...feels more controlled 🙈

I have an appointment at the clinic this week so will be giving a fresh cycle a go in Feb/March

Xxxx

[Hidden]

Yes! My partners spent count is terrible 1-2 million per ml, he thinks it will happen naturally and I just can’t believe it will! It has once before and we have a lovely daughter who is almost 6 from it but 4 years of trying since and nothing!! She took us well over 2 years to conceive and we were both younger then. ICSI would be easier if only I could down regulate! My body is so desperate to ovulate I grew a follicle despite the drugs and I’m in limbo on buserelin waiting for a bleed..also 2 months of trying naturally wasted! Good luck with your cycle xx

[MrsH17 in reply to Hidden]

Ahhh so have they cancelled your cycle or do you carry on till you are down regulated?

Xxx

[Hidden in reply to MrsH17]

I’ve had a trigger shot to make me ovulate from the follicle and I’m still on buserelin awaiting a bleed hopefully next week. It’s the second time I’ve failed to down reg (4th time in total) but I wasn’t offered a trigger last time and my cycle was eventually cancelled, I’m really hoping it won’t be cancelled again but I’m just having to wait and see 🤞x

[MrsH17 in reply to Hidden]

Aww I really hope you can get too egg collection xxx

[ttcemmie]

I definitely find ICSI less stressful than trying naturally. There's slightly more to have control over - the injections etc. and there's a loose schedule with different stages to it. To be honest, it's all stressful, though!

[MrsH17 in reply to ttcemmie]

It’s heart breaking when it doesn’t work all that effort put in and the embryos don’t make it 😢 but I would do ICSI every moth over trying naturally lol just couldn’t afford it 🙈😂 xxx

[FluffyPink]

I hear you! We tried naturally for a year and then did seven months of “TSIs”/ medicated cycles (injections and scans). I found them all much more difficult than ICSI as it felt as if the responsibility for success was down to us.

We have since changed clinic, but at the time I was told we weren’t conceiving because I must be “anxious”. This was so frustrating as I had already dropped down to part-time at work to reduce stress and was doing yoga, acupuncture, Chinese herbs and meditation 😂

Very frustrating for my hubby too as he felt ignored in the whole process.

Four ICSI cycles later, a trip to a urologist for my hubby (and quite a bit of counselling) and we are now so relieved to have opted for donor sperm. Took the pressure off him especially.

Hang in there. As I’ve been told by the clinicians several times it’s a “numbers game” - the more months you try the more chance you have.

Our age really determined that we needed to move to donor. If we had more time on our hands we’d have tried other options for longer.

Be gentle on yourself and know that you can’t control everything no matter how much work you put into it. xxx