3 full rounds of ICSI, 5 transfers, 8 blastocysts and we finally did it! BFP at 10dp5dt.

[Halli23]

Good morning everyone...

I’ve thought long and hard about whether to post a message this morning. I’ve struggled reading people’s positive stories at times when I’ve been down and found others so inspiring at times, so the last thing I want to do is cause any upset to anyone.

This is not a message I ever thought I’d get the opportunity to write and I know how supportive you have been to me over the last few weeks so I had to... I’m sure you know what’s coming.

WE GOT 2 DARK LINES!!!!!!!!

WE GOT OUR MIRACLE!!!!!

3 full rounds of ICSI, 5 transfers, 8 blastocysts and we finally did it! BFP at 10dp5dt.

I’m still in disbelief, I genuinely never thought that it would be our turn after all of my complications having had quite severe Ashermans Syndrome following surgery after a natural MMC. I was convinced I was damaged beyond repair, BUT IM PREGNANT.

The BFP is the biggest milestone for us after so many failed rounds, I know now that my body can still do it. No matter the outcome at this point with it being so so early... I have learnt that my body can do it again. 💪🏼 it’s unbelievable.

Petrified doesn’t even come close to how I’m feeling... but lucky and grateful also come in to play to. I’m trying not to panic or worry about what could happen or worry about the cramps I’m still having... but finding it impossible.

Hubby told me that I didn’t need to test again this morning after such a strong positive at 6pm yesterday. But of course I did... 4am this morning, POAS and the line is still there, it’s still strong and dark... but not as strong as yesterday evenings. So now I’m worrying about that and obsessively googling stronger HPT results in the afternoons 🙈

I was throwing up at midnight last night so I’m taking that as a good sign for now!! Have been feeling sick since 3DP5DT. Hopefully clinic will do my beta later today.

Thank you all for any words of encouragement you have given me throughout this... this is the first day of an incredibly loooooong journey where anything can happen, but I’m so happy I can start sharing it with you all here.

Sending lots of baby dust to you all as yours has helped me ❤️ xx

[Kloulou83]

Huge congratulations 🎉🎉 xx

[Franco81]

Ahhh this is so amazing, congratulations xx

[Millbanks]

That’s so wonderful to hear - thanks for sharing 💖 it’s always so encouraging to hear, especially given what you’ve been through xxx

[Picalilli99]

Aww so pleased for you to finally get your BFP after such a long journey! Congratulations and thanks for sharing xxxxx

[LisaRed07]

Congratulations and good luck with your blood test. Mine is tomorrow x

[Cinderella5]

Aww really pleased for you, its been a long journey for you both. Congratulations.xx

[Love4spitz]

Lovely post! Congratulations.

[aamiller405]

Massive congratulations xo

[Hidden]

Congrats thats such super news and clearly well deserved xx

[Livinginhope2019]

Wonderful news, congratulations xx

[Rebecca2384]

This is amazing, so happy for you x 💕

[L2213]

Brilliant news! Congratulations 🎉

[GreenApples]

Dear Hali23,

I’m so glad you posted. Congratulations!! I was here searching for similar positives and I found you. I love your line about celebrating your body! Your pregnant -whoop whoop! and you have climbed the biggest mountain! Xxx

[Louanne33]

Amazing news 🙌🏽💕!! Congratulations!! Xx

[ChiGi]

Congratulations and thank you sooooo much for giving so many of us hope for a bfP on day 10 post transfer. I’m beyond happy for you!!!!! Xxx

[Kyell2]

This is great news. Massive congratulations xx

[recidwen]

Hey Halli...I remember you posted on one of my posts a while ago. What did you change this time? How is it all going? Xx

[Halli23 in reply to recidwen]

Hi recidwen,

For the third collection and 5th transfer we hadn’t tried much else different from the second collection apart from the stimulation drugs I used.

First round I used Ovaleap and got a good amount of eggs but the 4 x 5bb blastos we got, none of them implanted. Dr said ‘bad bunch’.

Second round we used Menopor and Bemfola and it was a really poor round egg wise. Only got 1 blasto and a compacting. Used steroids, blood thinners and Intralipids too.

Third round we used Gonal F and it was the best collection yet! Used all the sane steroids, Intralipids and blood thinners etc. Collected 20, Got 8 blastos.

My consultant was insistent that it was just perseverance we needed, but after 4 failed transfers, most with 2 blastos at a time you can imagine where I wanted to tell him to go!!! But low and behold, it appears he was right.

We are currently 12 weeks and 4 days and had our 12 week scan on Thursday! Not going to lie it’s been a horrendous 8 weeks since we found out... I’ve pretty much bled every single day and cramped throughout. All the things that shouldn’t have been happening, did. Thought I was losing baby every other day and have lost count of the scans we’ve had to have.

But each time, our little miracle surprised us and stuck with us!!! Scan this week was showing everything just fine and growing perfect too ❤️ trying to relax and enjoy it a bit more now but there is always something to worry about.

I’m sorry for what you’ve just been through last week. The faint positive and then it disappearing must be so so hard, I never got anything but negatives and that was heartbreaking enough. The only thing I would say to that whilst trying to find you a positive is that one of your eggs started to implant... so it can happen!! That was always my worry, that something was wrong with the signals inside for implantation as we had only had BFN’s.

But I hope so much for you that this means that the next little blasto will nestle in that little bit stronger and give you your happy ending! 🤞🏼 stick with it lovely, you’ve come this far 💪🏼 xxx