BFN

[lolly2019]

Hi everyone, after my faint pink spotting sat eve, I started bleeding last night and did a test this morning. BFN for us. So so gutted that our top grade 5day blastocyst hasn’t made it. Wishing everyone testing and everyone at the start of their journey the best of luck. It really is a game of Russian roulette!! I’m away to google yoga retreats and run away to the sun for a week to hide and try and will myself to do another round. 💔💔💔

[Noah1981]

You poor darling we all feel this pain for you so please your not alone be kind to yourself and have time to get your body over the last cycle your day will come lovely take care of you xx

[lolly2019 in reply to Noah1981]

Thank you. Just had a few days on Arran with my partner, mum and dog and feel bit better. Getting my head and heart ready to go again!xx

[Noah1981 in reply to lolly2019]

Good girl 🤞🤞 x

[Hidden]

So very sorry to hear this. Wishing you good luck with the next steps going forward xoxo

[lolly2019 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for replying and the good wishes! This forum has been such a great support! Xx

[Scarlett13]

Lolly I’m so sorry. This is such a snakes and ladders experience. Really gutted for you. Know the pain only too well. Keep fighting!!! What progesterone support do you take and have you had your levels tested? X

[lolly2019 in reply to Scarlett13]

Thank you for replying. I was on a short flare protocol so only 2wks of gonal f 225 then HCG shot post transfer. I asked about progesterone support and they said the protocol I was on didn’t require it as I didn’t down regulate and my levels were ok at start...

[JadeH92]

I am soo sorry to be reading this! Thinking of you and your partner today! Sending you lots of love and wishing you lots of luck in the future! ❤

[lolly2019 in reply to JadeH92]

Thank you so much for your support. This forum and everyone that takes time to reply really have helped.xx

[Hope76]

Lolly am so very sorry I was hoping this wasn’t the case. Know you will be extremely upset. There are no words to take away the pain. You will somehow find the strength to pick yourself up and try again am sure 😘

Remember a given up battle is never won ....

Yoga retreat sounds ideal x

[lolly2019 in reply to Hope76]

Thank you!! I’m all booked up and ready to completely indulge myself and have a week just chilling and nurturing myself back to ivf fit for round number 3!!xxx

[Bistbee]

I’m just so sorry and sad to read your post this morning. You must be feeling absolutely devastated, it really doesn’t get easier to deal with each time does it 😔 know you are not alone and we all feel your pain too, take all the time you need to grieve your loss and focus on getting your body back to normal. Yoga retreat sounds like the perfect idea to get away from real life for a bit. Sending you lots of love and strength to pull you through x

[lolly2019 in reply to Bistbee]

Thank you so much for taking the time to reply. This forum and everyone that reaches out has been a great support for me! I’ve had a few days away with partner, dog and mum at her holiday house on Arran and feel ready to get back in to ivf thinking for round 3! Yoga retreat in a couple of weeks and then going for it again!xx

[Lots8788]

So sorry to hear that lovely. big hugs to you. take it easy x x

[lolly2019 in reply to Lots8788]

Thank you for replying! I really appreciate all the support xx

[Lots8788 in reply to lolly2019]

💕😘

[Hidden]

I'm so sorry... my thoughts are with you. Such a cruel life sometimes. Sending hugs xxx

[lolly2019 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much for taking the time to reply xx

[CLou21]

Im so sorry to hear this! We are all here with you to support xx

[lolly2019 in reply to CLou21]

Thank you! This group and everyone that takes the time to write has been such a great supper!xx

[Olivia1980xxx]

I’m so so sorry hun😔xx

[lolly2019 in reply to Olivia1980xxx]

Thank you for replying. This group is such a great support.xx

[Hidden]

Lolly!! Oh I'm so so sorry ! really sad for you. You absolutely deserve a lovely holiday to recover from this. Wishing you all the best for the next cycle if you do one xxx

[lolly2019 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you! Definitely going to go for round number 3 just need to make some decisions about whether to stick with same clinic or change....xx

[Core]

So sorry to read this, defo go book yourself a week in the sun BFNs are heartbreaking xx

[lolly2019 in reply to Core]

Thank you for replying. Had a few days away and feel a bit better! Week in the sun will definitely soothe my soul and hopefully I’ll be ready for round number 3!xx

[Millbanks]

Oh Lolly, that is so crap. I’d be getting a large glass of wine ready and booking that holiday. Sending lots of love xxx

[lolly2019 in reply to Millbanks]

Thank you! Have enjoyed some large glasses of wine and some nice cakes too past few days!! Retreat is booked and can’t wait to just have some solo sun time and come back ready for round 3!!xx

[Millbanks in reply to lolly2019]

Yes! Stay strong and positive... bring it on xx

[everhopeful83]

I’m so sorry to read this Lolly😞💖xxx

[lolly2019 in reply to everhopeful83]

Thank you for replying! Everyone’s support is much appreciated xx

[Hidden]

Sorry to read this, it’s devastating & heartbreaking hey, take care & look after yourself best of luck for ur next steps 😘

[lolly2019 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for replying.xx

[Peony85]

Hi Lolly, really sorry to hear your news... sending hugs xx

[lolly2019 in reply to Peony85]

Thank you for repaying and hugs! This group has been such a great support!xx

[aamiller405]

Uck no I'm so very sorry to read this sad news... Take time out to look after yourself xo

[lolly2019 in reply to aamiller405]

Thank you for replying! Had a couple of days away chilling and have booked a solo yoga retreat to get my head straight then back to try again!!xx

[Alexa3]

So sorry this one didn’t work. Yoga retreat and some sun sounds like a good idea for healing xx

[lolly2019 in reply to Alexa3]

Thank you for replying! All booked and can’t wait to go and just have some time out and chill and heal as you said! Hopefully come back ready for round 3!! Xx

[Kat_15]

I’m so, so sorry Lolly. Sending you big hugs. 🤗 Be kind to yourself. xxxx

[lolly2019 in reply to Kat_15]

Thank you for replying! This group and everyone that takes the time to write is such a great support!xx

[crisps88]

So so sorry for you. My heart goes out to you darling I really am. Be kind to yourself, no words can say sorry enough but it’s so unfair. Xxx

[lolly2019 in reply to crisps88]

Thank you for replying. I’ve had a couple of days away from everything and have booked a yoga retreat so really looking forward to that!xx

[crisps88 in reply to lolly2019]

Wow that’s super relaxed, enjoy yourself in whichever way you want love. Hope you’re ok. X X x

[Gem1982]

Sorry to hear this, I feel your pain , don’t give up on your dream, it could just be round the corner. X

[lolly2019 in reply to Gem1982]

Thank you for replying. It really is a great support hearing from people who really do understand your journey and your pain.xx

[Shelleybean]

So sad to read this 😢 Hoping the yoga and sun help you to feel a little better and continue your journey. Sending love 💖

[lolly2019 in reply to Shelleybean]

Thank you for replying! Everyone’s support is so greatly appreciated xx

[Essi]

Lolly Im very sorry to hear this. Please remember that you are not alone and we are feeling your pain.

Sending you lots of love, hope and strength, Never give up and lets try another round xxxx

[lolly2019 in reply to Essi]

Thank you so much for replying! It really does help hearing from everyone and knowing that there are people who understand your pain.xx

[Jessy1280]

Big hugs. Totally understand where you're coming from. We too had a good graded embryo by despite this I had my first failed FET the other week and I still can't get over it. Waiting to start cycle 2 and the wait is killing me.

I have no words of wisdom but just wanted to let you know you're not alone and we'll all get there eventually xx

[lolly2019 in reply to Jessy1280]

Thank got for replaying. I’m sorry you’re suffering too. It’s just so frustrating knowing we've both had a good un and still not worked. I’ve had a couple of days away from work, phone, internet and feel a little better. I’m so sad but want to try again after a wee break. Good luck to you and I hope you find the strength to try again too!xx

[Jessy1280 in reply to lolly2019]

It's so hard. I totally feel your pain. I've kinda lost all hope at the moment wondering if there is actually something wrong with me. I'm really, really scared ill never be a mum and that breaks my heart. I'm scared of a second cycle incase it fails again. I'm scared with a change in protocol, I'll get less eggs/embryos/graded worse. It's so sad and such a cruel process but we can only hope we'll get there in the end. Im so thankful we have this forum for support. People here have pulled me up when I've been at my lowest ebb with nobody to turn to. Hopefully we can do the same for you xxx 🤗