It’s been a week since I miscarried. I remember Saturday kitchen being on tv when I had to run upstairs and that’s when I think it happened.
I’m feeling physically a lot better. The bleeding has gone down to a light period, and it’s now brown. At first I felt very weak, but I’m feeling stronger. I still feel a bit of weakness around my stomach, and my pelvic floor still feels weak. But my vagina feels back to normal now, and I’ve only got very light cramps now, I’m not taking any paracetamol anymore.
Emotionally it’s still hard. Which I guess is to be expected. I’m not crying all day anymore, but I’m having a few moments every day. I’m not ready to go back to work, and I’m not ready to go out for the day. I’m scared of seeing babies, or pregnant ladies, I feel jealous, envious and angry. I know they are normal feelings to have. I hope they will go away eventually, because I can’t hide forever.
I’m still wanting to research into my hypothyroidism, but I’m not sure where to start. It’s really confusing. I’m going to get a referral to and Endocrinologist. I saw one before I got pregnant, but it was useless. He said as long as my TSH was in range, then everything was fine. From what I’m reading now, I think there’s more to it than TSH. I think I need T3 testing, and my vitamin levels.
We want to try again soon, my fiancé wants to start having sex as soon as I stop bleeding. The doctor said to wait until after my next period, to avoid anxiety in dating, in the small chance I get pregnant straight away.
I miss my baby everyday. Even though I never met my baby, I have so many memories of when I was pregnant.
Wishing everyone good luck, it’s such a hard journey ❤️❤️❤️