Hi guys, I am delighted to read a lot of success stories on here and I am thrilled for everyone. I am new to the community and I would really appreciate any support and advice at the moment as I am feeling so low. There are some lovely supportive people on here!
I have just been going through my first IVF cycle only to have the egg collection cancelled while I was in the theatre on Friday (30th June). I was all prepped and I was told that I had already ovulated so it was too late. It was completely devastating and was given no explanation apart from it happens, but it's very rare. They said I needed to make a quick decision as they may as well do IUI once they had treated other patients, as it's kind of worth a go even though they had no clue when I had ovulated. I had to walk out of the theatre whilst trying to hold it together and everyone watching, it was so difficult.
I wasn't at all prepared for this and to be honest I felt very shoved into a corner to make a decision. I was put in a small room given 2 mins to talk to my husband and quickly given the cost for a refund! What!!! As if I was interested in the money at this point!! We agreed to the IUI and told to hang around in the reception until they could 'fit me in'! I was distraught and tried not to cry in front of other people. No one offered any support or talk through what IUI even was. I honestly didn't have a clue!
I was taken down to the theatre again 2 hours later, told to sign a form and they would give me the sperm. It was from a sperm donor and it felt strange being shown it and I am having massive flashbacks of it being dispersed into my womb on the screen. I wasn't mentally in the right place to have this done and haven't had any counselling yet to deal with the donor side of things. I was told there was hardly any chance of it working but to treat it seriously by doing Cyclogest pessaries every morning and night. These have made me feel horrendous, I can't sleep and I feel completely traumatised all weekend. I keep crying every couple of hours.
I feel like a piece of meat and completely violated by what happened. I just can't take in what has happened.
I am so sorry to rant but I don't know who to turn to for advice or to talk things through.
I am 40 and this was my only chance at trying IVF with my own eggs, I just wanted to give it one try before going down the donor route. Now I feel as if I have been cheated out of a chance and I don't even know if I have any eggs that would have fertilised.
Any support would be so appreciated.