It's my first time posting so, hello!
Basically after 11 months of TTC I went to the doctors after a 123 day cycle. After a number of blood tests the doctors found I'm not ovulating as I should. We're currently waiting for the results for my partners sample before we can be referred to the fertility specialists and I'm completely freaked and in two mind about it.
Part of me feels so hopeful that they are taking this seriously, I feel like throwing my hands up in celebration. "I told you there was something wrong! I knew it!"
Then it dawns on me...there's something wrong with me, my body is stopping me from getting everything I wanted.
My partner is one of those annoying people who's answer to everything is "it will be OK in the end", so I'm struggling to talk to him about it all.
I honestly feel so alone at the moment, I don't know what the next steps are, I don't know if it's normal to feel this anger and resentment towards myself, does it make me a bad person to be so jealous of my pregnant friends, am I holding my partner back by not being able to have his baby?
Sorry if this is a massive rant but I honestly just don't know where to turn to find out if this is normal or to get advice.