Scared about next donor cycle

[Hope4usall]

Hi all

Just feeling very overwhelmed ATM. We are starting with our second donor this month and have just found out that not only have they already selected a donor, but our egg collection is this Friday! I am so grateful don't get me wrong but part of me just feels so sad that I am not capable of doing that bit. I've snapped at my other half and instead of having a nice evening together, we are separate and I'm in the middle of nowhere trying to get away from everything. He is the one person (as well as everyone reading this!) that understands and I am being awful to him. He doesn't deserve it. I am terrified we won't get many eggs on Friday and even more terrified that they won't be good quality and we will end up with a miscarriage or BFN's again. I'm not sure how much more I can cope with. It's all I think about.

Sorry for the off load, but I know you all understand xx

[hannahding]

Hey, dont be so hard on yourself. I can understand that all of these thoughts might be overpowering on the positive ones. However, you have to control them. Talk to your partner about your feelings. If he understands you he will try to make things better. However, you will have to stay more positive. I hope things work out this cycle.

[Bozo_the_pumpkin]

Take a step back and breath. I know these feelings can be so overwhelming but I always found it was better to go through them with someone rather than alone. Speak to your partner... he might be scared too-hen hold hands and face it together... this might be it for you so see the silver lining as well. Good luck!!

[Eltel81]

I’m so sorry you’re feeling so overwhelmed. I’m sure he understands. Spend some quality time together, let him try to hold you up. There’s nothing worse than feeling powerless....we all know what that feels like.

I wish you the very best and hope that you won’t have to look back after this round xxx

[Hope4usall in reply to Eltel81]

Thank you so much for your comment. I hope so too xx

[Mantaray75]

Just take each day as it comes. I'm not surprised you're nervous after all you've been through. Its only natural to have little disagreements with eachother, its such a stressful time.

Don't be so hard on yourself.

x

[Hope4usall in reply to Mantaray75]

Thanks. I'm trying to stay positive. I hope you are all well xx

[Boo718]

Honestly how your feeling is completely normal try not to beat yourself up. I’m in exactly the same position and it’s just poop. Let it out scream cry punch a pillow. It will all be ok xxx

[Hope4usall in reply to Boo718]

Thank you. my partner is very supportive and says he understands xx

[Cinderella5]

It is scary going back to the start again! Cant even imagine how it must be for you after having been through so much already! I think we take our frustrations out on the ones closest to us....usually out OH so dont beat yourself up, Im sure he knows deep down the reasons for you freaking out! I was a wreck leading up to our second egg collection and getting the updates, hadnt done it for ages and its hell waiting on that news. Ive got my fingers and toes crossed that you get some wonderful eggies/embryos! Good luck.xx

[Hope4usall in reply to Cinderella5]

Thanks hun, I really hope we do too! I hope you are getting on okay??

[Cinderella5 in reply to Hope4usall]

I'm doing fine thanks! Keep us posted with your news!xx

[Hope4usall in reply to Cinderella5]

Will do xx

[crisps88]

You’re doing so so well in this situation, please don’t beat yourself up. I’m sure your partner is doing the best you can, as are you. You both want to be there for each other and you’re both going to be struggling separately. Wishing you so much luck for your your egg collection and journey. X x x

[Hope4usall]

Thank you so much xxx