I have had Endo for 21 years,over this time Gynae have done Surgeries,I've been on Pill's,HRT,Prostap,I've had coils all to no avail it just keeps coming back and with a bigger vengeance everytime. I don't how much more pain I can take. The other day I had one of my usual chronic pain episodes after a bowel movement,the pain was so bad I really thought my heart might give out. It took 45 minutes for my pain killers to work,it felt like a lifetime and then my body went into shock and I shook violently and threw up,then passed out. It took days for me to recover. I also suffer from chronic pelvic pain and chronic lower back pain and my mobility has been poor for the last few years and due to this I have gained a bit of weight. Gynae have decided they need to do another surgery but wont touch me until my BMI is under 35,I really need this surgery! I dont know what is wrong with me,I know if I dont lose weight I cant have the surgery but I just cant do it. Please help does anyone have any ideas on how to motivate yourself to lose weight when you are having to live with this massive weight on your shoulders everyday. I also have Endo in my nose,it is agony and when my period comes my nose bleeds like my period,it is so painful I cant touch my nose for weeks. I think sometimes its hard to explain to other people just how painful and debilitating Endo can be and i've had people say to me "well at least its only once a month" but its everyday and not just physical pain but emotional pain,I dont want anyone out there to suffer but its comforting to know I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE,and other people go through this every day,just like me. Thankyou for taking the time to read my post, any advice about the weight loss would be greatly appreciated.