Hi all,
I hope everyone is doing as well as possible.
I recently posted to express my anxiety about an upcoming laparoscopy. I’ve been on the waiting list with the nhs for 2 years for this procedure. My biggest fear was being told that nothing was found. I know from some other peoples posts that I wasn’t alone with this fear! I’m updating as my fear has been realised. I awoke, very groggy, to be told no Endo found.
I’ve been discharged back to my GP with a piece of paper stating “360 degree view obtained, ovaries and ovarian fossae visualised, no evidence of endometriosis.” They stated my pain was likely due to my IBS. I’m at a loss really as i was diagnosed with IBS over 20 years ago and it doesn’t explain the symptoms I‘ve had in the last few years. Nor, does IBS explain why the mirena coil (inserted 14 months ago) has eased some of my symptoms.
I feel so guilty for enlisting help from friends and family so I could go for the lap (I have two young children) and I will feel like a fraud if I take the assigned two weeks off work for recovery when the outcome was that nothing was found. I feel like a fraud now for all the times I’ve cancelled plans due to chronic pain or the times I’ve worried my family because I’ve been curled up in a ball crying in agony and vomiting from pain.
I know that all of you beautiful, brave people have your own difficult journeys and diagnoses to navigate so I’m sorry for my long-winded and self-pitying post! I guess I just needed a safe space to vent some of my hurt and frustration as my mental health has taken a big hit since my lap results and I’m feeling very low.
Love and light to all xx