Want to give up

[rossemma1]

I really feel like giving up today, I’ve just had a really crap afternoon - I almost had a breakdown in town as I’m in so much pain and felt sick...

People called the ambulance, my work team came to see me in the town, I’m so embarrassed all for not feeling well...

I’ve just taken oral morph and hoping to stay out of hospital but if need to go guess I will?

I’ve got ages to wait until like everyone til surgery

[thara9643]

Please do not give up. If you want to talk to a outsider here is the endo uk helpline endometriosis-uk.org/helpline

[RunningMum11]

Awwww poor you. I’m just so sorry you’re feeling this way. Please don’t give up, keep hanging in there. Are you able to seek help from your GP in the meantime? Pain is so exhausting and in turn making it harder to deal with. I’m sure your work team have nothing but empathy for you and are not standing in judgement. I think it’s more of a case of you judging you. You can’t help being in so much pain, you certainly don’t choose to be. Keep focusing on the fact you will eventually have surgery and your life will be better. Xx🙏🏻☺️

[rossemma1 in reply to RunningMum11]

Thank you for your kind words

I would love to go to hospital but every time I go it’s always the same nurses and managers on which makes me embarrassed and a prat that I keep going

Soon my file will be too big for the cabinet!!!

[RunningMum11]

You are definitely no prat, even if you think you are. But I can totally understand you feeling that way. However, all the hospital staff are there to help you, not judge you. No one chooses to keep having to go to A&E. Be kind to yourself☺️🥰

[rossemma1]

Are you diagnosed yet?’

Where abouts are you

I’m waiting for my first lap

[RunningMum11 in reply to rossemma1]

Yes I was diagnosed 20yrs ago. But I had children quickly after and endo settled. 10yrs ago I had another laparoscopy as I was suffering with my bowels. They found endo was on my bowel wall hence the IBS symptoms. They insert a mirena and it’s been much better ever since. My coils due to be changed next month. I can tell it’s not doing it full job Properly, so will be grateful for the new one. Xx

[Moonglo]

Look at it this way, your colleagues must really care about you to come and see you in town. And they’ve seen first hand how shitty this disease can be.

As for the staff in the hospital, I’m sure they can see how unwell you are when you’re there. Like RunningMum11 says, it’s not like you choose to hang out at A&E for fun.

Be kind to yourself xx

[rossemma1 in reply to Moonglo]

Dad disappointed in me he said yesterday I spoke with him and I seemed ok then 30 mins later he gets a call saying the ambulance is with me, he says if it happens that quick he isn’t going to make plans to go out at the moment

[Moonglo in reply to rossemma1]

So your endo pains are inconveniencing your dad’s schedule? Sorry if that sounds disrespectful but you haven’t got a crystal ball. This is the reality of your disease, and you’re not being a drama queen.