Just had my first gynae appointment at long fucking last and I’ve come out of it randomly sobbing and pissed off.
The consultant wouldn’t listen to me as I tried to explain how I feel etc. I had written a list but he didn’t want to see it or have me read from it. He has referred me for an MRI so that is something but he refused to acknowledge that I am in severe pain - and have been for 5 bloody weeks. I asked about alternatives to co-codamol since it isn’t strong enough and he said that it is fine and I don’t need anything else. To make matters even fucking sweeter, he has told me that he will see me in 4 MONTHS time after wanting me to try my pill for 2 months straight twice.
I literally give up with all this. I’m permanently exhausted, don’t sleep, know nothing but pain, piss off my manager for needing time off work when I feel I can’t move and my depression is getting worse with each day that passes...
I just give up.