I'm at a loss here. I was diagnosed with endo via lap when I was 19 after 5 years of pain. I was originally put on the combined pill which helped my pain massively but I was getting migraines with aura. I'm 23 now and I switched to the mini pill about 7 months ago.
It has caused me major depression. I have had depression and anxiety since I was 14 years old and I worked extremely hard throughout my teenage years and adult life to control it, being diagnosed with endo and the fatigue and pain it has caused definitely didn't help but I was finally getting into a place after my surgery and on the combined pill where I could control it most of the time.
I'm having suicidal and self harm thoughts and it all started when I switched to the mini pill. My doctors have suggested the coil but I'm terrified of the bleeding and pain that they are telling me is "likely to happen for the first 3-6 months". I already had pain everyday, I don't think I can handle it getting any worse.
I feel like I'm having to choose between going absolutely insane or keeping my endo under control (as much as I can anyway). I hate this condition. I want to have children and I feel like I'm being forced to compromise my mental health and my 20s just so I can. I don't know what to do.