I'm new to the site but I am so glad that I have found it as i really need some advice on my up-coming Laparoscopy.
Surprisingly enough im not actually scared about the surgery itself, I am terrified of the result. As much as I don't not want to have Endometriosis and wouldn't wish this pain on anybody, I really can't think of anything worse than been told that I don't have it and they found nothing at all.
I have spent years and years in agony with these awful symptoms and when I first heard of Endometriosis I was CONVINCED that I must have it. I have spent months now pushing for my GP and consultant to take me seriously and let me have the Lap but now it has come to it I'm becoming more and more convinced that it could all be in my head.
If the Lap comes back clear it really will be the end of the road for me. There are no more tests, scans or appointments I can bare to try. The sheer embarrassment of this operation telling me that I'm perfectly healthy is completely putting me off! I can't bare to find out that it is all in my head after the amount of time I have had of work, doctors I have argued with and people I have let down! I don't want to seem like somebody who just can't 'Handle' pain. I am desperate for an answer.
Has anybody ever felt like this in the weeks leading up to their Lap? Like the pressure to prove to yourself and everybody else that you really are ill, isn't even worth going through with the OP for?
Really hoping someone can understand the thought that are going through my head right now and give me some advice on what to do?
Thank you. x