Apologies for the length of the post, but I'm so upset and feel at a loss...
Had post-lap follow up today: gynae said they'd found a small cyst on left Fallopian tube but it wasn't responsible for the severity and distribution of the pain I'm experiencing - to do anything with the cyst would risk damage to the tube, so he feels it would be dead end persuing this avenue.
I'd tracked my pain and plotted it against my cycle - it's undisputedly connected, so I'd recently changed from combined pill to POP to try to control symptoms.
But here's the thing - I desperately want to try for a baby, gynae knows this so did a dye test (tubes are clear) - it was being off the pill that made all these problems come to light but I went back on it until I could find a solution to the problem (didn't help very much going back on it tbh).
Gynae is saying that basically, there isn't a definitive solution - he says it's not endo because he didn't see any. Says its not adenomyosis because I don't have a boggy uterus. But says the best solution would be to try for baby and reminded me that I shouldn't really leave it too long.
He suggested I stay on the POP for now, he'll refer me to the pain clinic, who can sort out the pain with neurotransmitters (with potential side effects) & then see me in 12 weeks.
So here's the thing - I'm in pain with no real 'cause' or name to put to it.
If I come off the pill (& avoid the NTs) to try for baby, I'll likely be having more time off sick and won't be able to take any decent medication to help the pain... there is the risk I could lose my job for too many absences. I don't know whether to ask if I can drop to part time hours, to just do my hours when I'm fit and able, but then I'd probably only get a fraction of SMP (I don't know?) as I'm not "full time"...
BUT... there's no guarantee that being pregnant will stop the pain - it seems to be the gynaes best guess as he has no other answers to give..!
I just needed to vent and though you ladies would understand Xx