Hi everyone, this is my first post and I’m new to this opening up to people. I’ve now got to a point where I feel so alone that I don’t know what else todo.
My story feels like it goes on forever & that I will bore people so I do apologise. Anyway I’m writing today as I just don’t know what todo anymore or how to cope me and my husband have been trying for a baby for the last 3 years and nothing! I was given clomid to try but after my first cycle I was taken into hospital with very sharp pain to find I had an ovarian cyst.
The cyst was only 2cm so I couldn’t have an operation until it grew to 5cm so for 8 months I suffered with pain every day and felt like I was living on pain killers until I eventually had it removed. When I had the cyst removed the hospital gave me hope that within 12 months I should be able to fall pregnant but nope it’s been another 12 months of hell been in and out of hospital.
I finally got answers to why I was in so much pain all the time and why I wasn’t getting pregnant I was diagnosed with endometriosis and was given an option to go on the pill and then have my cells burnt off? Or have an injection but It would cause me to go through the menapause. I generally just don’t know what todo anymore how can I be happy on the pill when i so badly want a family but then how am I meant to accept it may never happen? I feel like I can’t speak with my husband or friends as they don’t understand. I know theirs plenty more people that are in same boat as me and this is the reason for my post I need to speak with someone who understands what it’s like as I’m tired and drained of feeling so alone.