Good evening everyone,
Hope everyone is ok this morning!
I woke up with pain in my right side and terrible back ache and feeling sick and fatigue. All my joints hurt and feel very sad and upset. Bleg.
I know it is the time of the month and it will come today or tomorrow, so i know why i have pain and what are the reasons.
I have been diagnosed with Endo last year. They only found 1 spot with surgery and when they removed it they said i shouldn't have any problems. They were so wrong. I have been struggling for a year now.
Trying a lot of things to feel better, exercise, walk outside, change my diet. Been to Gp's many times in 2015 and had 2 scan's this year to check if i didn't have any cysts back on my ovaries. Had a chat with Gynacologist in my own country and he wants to see me once a year, to make sure things are ok.
My exercises do help and when i have a walk outside i feel loads better, but it is so frustrating to have this vicious circle every month to go through. It makes me feel very sad, that not only me, but so many others have to fight and make sure to keep on top of things. It is exhausting.
I have been home now for 1,5 month. My work was worried about me and they wanted me to take some time off for me to chill, relax and look after myself. I have been going to counselling, which have been usefull and helpful, because i felt so down and sad all the time. I was snappy with my partner and my energy levels were down the drain. After working all day, making sure house was kind of tidy i just couldn't bring myself to do anything anymore, so i stopped the thing i loved to do, my hobbies weren't touched and reading was ok, but my brain was so frazzled i just couldn't take information in well and sometimes had to read it again. Luckily this is going better now with being at home and concentrating more on myself. My partner doesn't understand me well with how i feel, it is very difficult to make him understand. He is trying, but it is hard work. I did CBT as well, which again was helpfull and intresting.
I know people here understand where i am coming from, how this beast of Endo can make us feel, even when we have not much endo inside of us, it still can be horrible to live with.
I am sorry i babbled on, but just needed to write this off my chest, because it is hard sometimes.