I feel so silly sharing this, as today Ive read story's that are so much more scary than what I am going through. it is nine days and counting till my first lap and I'm having a mass with blood supply removed from my c section scar ( they can not confirm endo till they remove it) but have found endo in several place in my womb and a fibroid which they say goes hand in hand with endo.
all this was found on ultra sound and vaginal scan. The nearer it's getting to op the more scared I am. I hemridged twice when I was 18 with my first daughter and again when I miscarried twins and then again with c section 3 1/2 years ago. The reason I am so scared is I'm scared of never seeing my girls again ( I no how much like a drama queen I sound right now ) but I swear I am truly scared out out of my mind !!
I have a 3 year old little girl who has Down syndrome and my grandaughter also who lives with me full time . I have sleep apnea as well only mild but I still have the symtoms I know deep down that I have to have it done because the pain in too much to bare and each month it's getting worse,but I am still so frightened. I have a genuine fear of dying a genuine fear of leaving all my girls without there mum. Nana.
my eldest is 22 and she has bi poler disorder they all need me so much. I'm sorry I sound like such a drama queen especially,reading some of what you women have gone through. I really just needed to tell someone, my partner just keeps saying don't be morbid my mother in law just says don't be silly so I just keep it in. Well until now so to anyone that does read it thank you for taking the time too. Much love and respect to you all that have to fight this decease each and every day xx