Just had first injection.

[squancy]

Just had the troop come in and give me my first injection of zoladex. Was so scared of it going in my belly which is still so distended and sore. I leap out of bed with the slightest brush! Took her ten minutes to do but she was so kind and patient. I'm not going to be given hrt as it's only for three months, if I have bad symptoms then I will. I will be getting an mri and go to the endo clinic. I don't know what that is but I'm hoping I'll have stopped crying by then! Feel so silly, weak and heartbroken! Think I need to go home tomorrow but frightened of being at home on my own all day with my stupid thoughts while I get better. Thank god for Christmas!! I can watch elf ten times a day! Thank you to you all for your support, I would be locked up by now without this forum as a vent. Everyone's journeys are different, but no matter what your own story is, a kind word makes a world of difference.

[angelyn]

Hey squancy

I'm glad that you finally know why you are in pain. Although this news is difficult I think at least if you know what it is you can take the next steps. There's nothing worse than having a mystery illness and being made to feel as if it's all in your head.

Just be kind to yourself while you are at home and treat yourself plenty - you certainly deserve it!

Xx

[squancy in reply to angelyn]

Thank you. Going home at some point today, really pleased but terrified too! I don't even know why, my bed doesn't tilt up, my cat might jump on my belly, boredom! The nurse coming later to take three of my dressings off, they are leaving the drain dressing to fall off at its gross! I freak when anyone comes near my belly! Tired of the tears and lack of sleep but scared to be on my own when my bf goes to work and doesn't get home till eleven. If the gas, pain and the bleeding stops as this all started again yesterday, I will start feeling slightly better. Right now I just want my breakfast!