I've never posted before, so hello!
I wanted some advice on how I'm feeling,
when I was younger, aged 16-18 (now 20) I suffered quite badly with depression, having regular suicidal thoughts and self harming, I refused to get any help because I was so embarrassed and didn't think anyone would understand of believe me.
I did get better but recently I've not been feeling great. It's nothing compared to what I was like before, but I've been so anxious in some situations that I've had mild panic attacks, I am also permanently exhausted and I feel very very ditched from a lot of situations. I also get very angry but it's often when I'm on my own.
I also have a housemate who has anxiety and depression and I feel like by trying to help her it's making me worse! But I've not told her how I feel because I don't want her to have another stress!
I don't know if this is normal or not. I don't feel upset like I used to but instead I have no interest in most things. My friends all think I have a great care free attitude but I think it's a lack of motivation and emotions to make any attachments to situations. I've become very dry and never want anyone to see any emotions.
I'm constantly worried about my mental health, but I don't think anyone would understand me, I can't talk to anyone because it makes me too upset or makes me feel stupid. I just don't know what to do right now.
If I go to my gp what can I tell them? Will they take me seriously? Am I over reacting, am I fine?
If anyone has any advice on what I should do I would be very grateful. Sorry for the essay- I feel bad now for rambling on.