After completing 3 runs of week 2, today came the day for me to step up to week 3 and 3 minute run. I didn't want to write last week, as I was coming back here and failing all of you, but also myself. So I waited until I completed at least 1 week of runs.
We are in a lovely bank holiday Monday. I woke up, looked through the window and siad to myself 'definitely not'! I put my warm sweatpants on and smelly T-shirt, fed the dog, let her to the garden and while standing outside I was thinking that I want to do it, I need to do it for myself. I just cannot fail myself again this year. So I put on my running clothes, set up NHS podcast for week 3 and hoped I will be able to run twice as much as last week.
Me and my lurcher doggy go out from the door and started warm up walk and getting all the doggy business out of the way. First run, 90 seconds, I did it last week, but it felt hard, I couldn't find my pace. I welcomed 90 second walk with a relief ๐ฎโ๐จ And then Laura told me to get ready for my first 3 minute run. Off we went, coming off the corner we met another doggy and it threw me off the pace. But I decided to just go very very VERY slow ๐ฆฅ People probably were thinking I was walking or even strolling, but no, this was my 3 min run. Another walk, ufff ... The walk was very nice, and I started to breathe, and I mean breathe properly. I felt oxygen coming to my brain, and muscles. 90 second run, not a breeze, but not a struggle. It was nearly enjoyable. A walking break, and another 3 minute. Deep breathing, full focus on that oxygen, and just putting one foot in front of the other, clear brain, peace. Laura told me that I am on a 2 minute mark and only 1 minute left, and I... I felt good. ๐ Finished my run strong, 5 minute cool down, and suddenly I understood all the marathoners looking desperately for a loo. This was very brisk walk home ๐ ๐ ๐
My watch told me that I hit a new running record, but at that second I couldn't cared less. However now, during my post run stretches I feel good. I feel good about myself. I haven't felt that in a long time. I have this tiny hope that maybe this time.I won't let myself down. ๐ค๐ค๐ค
I won't finish 5k soon, but maybe, just maybe I will do this. I have few more weeks before my long annual leave after which I will be re-starting this programme. But for now I will keep going.
With hope I wish everyone good runs, walks, and good week full of hope that we can do this!