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Week 6 Completed and a crisis of confidence ๐Ÿ˜ฌ

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Hello ๐Ÿ‘‹

I completed week 6 tonight and I do actually feel great now it's done however whilst I was doing it I had various conversations in my head about my pace.

I know you're all going to tell me off and tell me I need to keep my pace slow and I do. I could manage a clear hello to a passing very fit runner who passed me so i know I'm not going too fast. BUT I feel embarrassed and so selfish conscious. I feel so slow and that I'm too slow to be running oh I know it's silly I know it is and if I was running with someone else I know I wouldn't care it's when I'm on my own I feel so self conscious when I pass people or I'm infront of people. I had to speed up a couple of times once when I got tangled up in some dog walkers and another to get over a busy road and boy did my little speed ups make me more out of puff. So I know I can't up my pace even if I wanted to. Not to sustain it for 25 mins anyway.

I did speed up at the end like sarah told me to and I do feel great now but how do I get over the feelings of not being good enough/ fast enough/ slim enough/ young enough/ fit enough etc etc. I do try to turn my music up and drown these gremlins out ๐Ÿ˜‚

Sorry for the ramble

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misswobbleGraduate

Week six is badass! ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ˜ƒ. Itโ€™s the hardest week! Youโ€™re over the hump now and batting downhill ๐Ÿƒโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿƒโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿƒโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿƒโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿƒโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿƒโ€โ™€๏ธ

Slow is just lovely so donโ€™t even think about worrying about it. C25k is the greatest thing since sliced bread. Youโ€™ll see

Really no-one cares what weโ€™re doing out there. You just think they do ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

Anyway, just crack on and enjoy yourself. It wonโ€™t be long til youโ€™re done and graduating ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ…๐Ÿƒโ€โ™€๏ธ

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Popstess in reply to misswobble

Thank you I know you are right and that no one cares. I need to turn my music up to drown those gremlins out

Hi! You are not alone in these feelings. I totally relate to everything you have said. Iโ€™m the oldest person I ever see running and I run barely faster than I can walk, so donโ€™t worry about your pace ( as people tell me too). I always tell myself that these fast runners/ joggers/ dog walkers donโ€™t know how far I have run when our paths cross-it could be 10 miles! Cheers me up anyway and keeps me plodding on slowly! Best wishes and keep going ๐Ÿ˜€

Thank you it's nice to know I'm not alone. Yes that is true I've never thought of that before.

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AlMorrGraduate

You should feel great now that you have ran run 3 of week 6, you are now OFFICIALLY a RUNNER ๐Ÿƒ๐Ÿพ, congratulations, don't worry about pace or other runners passing you, perhaps on your next run which is again 25 minutes, (runs 1,2 and 3 of week 7 are all 25 minutes,) you may pass a runner going a little slower than you, onwards and upwards ๐Ÿƒ๐Ÿพ ๐Ÿ‘

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Popstess in reply to AlMorr

Thank you yes Sarah told me I'm a runner now, that was nice to hear!

Thanks everyone I know I'm being silly, I don't know why those thoughts even come into my head.

I think when I apologised when I got tangled up in the doh walkers they were a bit rude and then my 1/2 bell rang and I knew after passing them I now needed to turn and go past them again and felt so awkward and self concisious. So silly I know as I'm sure exactly what you're saying is true no one cares!

It's something I need to get over and I will.

I am pleased to have done week 6 run 3

I feel slow and embarrassed sometimes too. Iโ€™ve started to tell myself โ€œthey donโ€™t know how far Iโ€™m running- I might be on mile 20 for all they knowโ€ ๐Ÿ˜‰

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Popstess in reply to Gagsy

Thank you yes this is true I'd never thought of it like that before

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PigpogGraduate

You are now officially a runner! You are very close to graduation week and have done so well to get this far. I'm sure nobody cares whether you're running fast or slow, they're too busy caught up in their own worries about what other people think of them!

You are doing this for you and nobody else's benefit. I remember when I used to pass runners when I was in my car, I would always be in awe of them and frankly quite jealous. I never thought anything negative about them, just positive thoughts and made sure I gave them enough space on the road. Don't be hard on yourself, you're doing great. Run at your pace, a pace that's comfortable for you and just ignore those gremlins.

We are all so proud of you and your achievements so far ๐Ÿƒโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿƒโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿƒโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ–๏ธ๐Ÿ–๏ธ๐Ÿ–๏ธ

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Popstess in reply to Pigpog

Thank you so much for your supportive words. Yes you're right I'm doing this for me and only me and I do feel good after completing it tonight โ˜บ๏ธ

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I presume you are running to develop your stamina, strength and endurance to enable you to run for longer and in time work on speed in a structured way. If that is so, then the easy conversational pace is the most effective to trigger the appropriate adaptations in your body..........faster is not better.

A crisis of confidence might be in order if you were hoping to be in the next Olympic squad, but if you just want to get fit then you are doing great.

The study on this article womensrunning.com/culture/s.... suggests that slower runners live longer..............so what was the actual reason that you want to be faster?

The only reason is because of how i view other people are viewing me as slow and unfit which is no doubt all in my head!!

Erm no I'm not hoping for the olympics just to eventually be able to run 5k in 30 minutes but there's no rush I will get there.

I don't know why I feel so embarrassed I don't see anyone else running at my pace

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IannodaTruffeAdministrator in reply to Popstess

Maybe they are all running too fast........

โ€œI don't see anyone else running at my paceโ€. Some of us are probably going slower!

Iโ€™m at the same stage as you - did W6R3 yesterday. And I am occasionally hit by those same feelings. Each time, I think about the guy, Prof Tanaka, in the slow running video and think if I can be still running at his age and be so awesome, then why worry about how quickly Iโ€™m running now. And anyway, like you mentioned, I wouldnโ€™t actually be able to go any faster anyway!

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Running-ringsGraduate in reply to freakychinchilla

Ha ya..Prof Tanaka is on one shoulder telling me it's better to go slow!

I wish he'd tell the general public where I live ๐Ÿ˜‚

Thank you it's so true! I need to get out of my head.

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RB26Graduate in reply to Popstess

The main thing is that you are running! THAT in itself is an achievement! In time your pace will probably get quicker but it's the beginning of your journey. I'm sure most people who see you don't think you're slow. I'm sure they'll think 'good on them' for getting out and doing it! ๐Ÿ˜Š

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Popstess in reply to RB26

Thank you, I always thought that in the past when I saw people running wow good for them! Never ever did I even consider what pace they were going so I don't know why I've convinced myself anyone would care about the pace I'm going ๐Ÿ˜‚

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RB26Graduate in reply to Popstess

๐Ÿ˜‚ No, me neither! Honestly, we can all be our worst enemy. Hopefully in time you will get to that point where you couldn't care less what people think because a slow pace is better than no pace. For me, the focus is the distance and not the time. That will come second. I've seen myself improve my pace without realising. It's only from looking at my saved times I see it. Just trust the process. I know you may have read this before from other people but it really works. Just think how amazing you'll feel when you complete it! ๐Ÿƒ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ

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Popstess in reply to RB26

Thank you, you're right and the fact that 6 weeks ago a few mins or running felt tough and last night I ran for 25 mins of course this programme works it definitely does. I just need to relax a little and enjoy the process rather than beating myself up for not being good enough all the time.

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RB26Graduate in reply to Popstess

You are good enough though. More than ๐Ÿ˜Š exactly! 25 mins running is amazing! And you're going to keep hitting your personal bests and get that buzz that comes with it. Enjoy!

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Your run is yours alone Popstess worry not about others, just own that run ๐Ÿ’ช

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Popstess in reply to Imc50

Thank you, I'll try! I've got 3 more of these runs so that'll give me a good chance to practice โ˜บ๏ธ

Hi Popstess..I really feel for you๐Ÿ˜“ You are not alone! So many people beat themselves up over all sorts, and fall into thinking traps. I did an introductory Cognitive Behavioural Therapy online course in September to get me through a rough patch of covid anxiety. If you haven't ever looked into CBT I would highly recommend it.

Stresscontrol.org run the course I did and it was free, the only downside being the sessions aren't available all the time. The course videos are released on YouTube at various times in the year. I did a more intensive 'life skills' online course through Aware (.ie) in January and that was even better and really changed how I figured out how I was dealing with stress, thoughts etc. I've recommended it to several friends, colleagues and family going through any sort of rough time!

There's always going to be someone slimmer, younger, fitter, prettier, richer, etc than us, and we would be miserable if we were to always compare ourselves to others. You can accept who you are now and change what you have the power to change- if you want. Want to be fitter? Continue running..it won't change our age but it might make us younger at heart and younger in body and mind!!๐Ÿ˜

Part of you already knows that there is no need to get flustered or embarrassed, and it's great that you realise it. It's believing it maybe that's the hard bit. Could you come at the tangled with dog walkers episode from a different angle?.. if your friend told you it happened to her what would you think about it and what advice would you give to her? Would you laugh maybe? Or sympathise and say "Sure it wasn't your fault! Stupid dog walkers with their long leads", or similar. My point is don't beat yourself up about it or put yourself down over it. ๐Ÿ’•

On an aside..I was slow jogging behind a man out walking yesterday. He could hear my footsteps and kept moving in on the path so I could overtake..I was going so slow I was baaarely making any progress on closing the gap so I doubled back on myself and reran the same stretch again so he would be further ahead!๐Ÿคฃ

It's good you took the positives from your run and you are giving time to focus on them. It is super that you've week 6 under your belt. We are all behind you. You can do this!!!!๐Ÿ™

Oh wow thank you for this message that's really helpful, I'll look into that course you mentioned and that website thank you that sounds really useful.

Yes that also happened to me running behind a man walking and he kept looking for me to overtake too!

I think I just get totally self conscious and awkward when around other people when I'm on my own. I'm really self conscious about the way I look and my weight anyway so out for a run in my running gear I feel like I'm drawing attention to myself. I know it's silly and I'd be the first to be supportive of anyone else feeling this way but I guess we're always harsher on ourselves.

Thank you again for all that info I'll go and look into it now.

I read somewhere on here that C25k is a mental training programme, wow isn't it just!! I'm going to have to train my mind to

get over myself and ignore these rotten gremlins chittering in my head. ๐Ÿ‘น

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Running-ringsGraduate in reply to Popstess

Ya it's been a mental training programme from the very beginning of wondering if it's something I should, could, would begin and that big step out the front door in leggings and runners!๐Ÿ˜„ Talk back to your gremlins..tell them you are on week 7, a runner and amazing!!!๐Ÿ˜

Thank you I'll try my best! The little beggars won't beat me! They just want me sit on the sofa and eat chocolate don't they! ๐Ÿ‘น๐Ÿ‘น they want to keep me in my comfort zone horrible little critters

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Globojim888Graduate in reply to Running-rings

what a great post Running-rings! ๐Ÿ™‚ and Popstess, like everyone has already mentioned, you are doing this for you alone and you should not be measuring yourself up against other runners who have probably be doing it for years!. Remember this saying attributed to president Teddy Roosevelt... "Comparison is the thief of joy". Keep going and enjoy the journey

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Running-ringsGraduate in reply to Globojim888

I haven't come across that quote before, very true! I must remember it! ๐Ÿป๐Ÿ˜

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KazzybeGraduate

Your doing brilliantly.

This race only you can win and your nearly there. Iโ€™ve done this twice before and when I say I run I use that term loosely as I to am very slow. Itโ€™s not about speed itโ€™s about getting out getting moving and feeling like youโ€™ve achieved something, so a massive pat on the back. This trip is also a massive mind over matter as at certain times in this programme I found that my mind kept saying you canโ€™t do this stop, but my body was able to keep going. Letโ€™s do this, you know you can ๐Ÿ‘

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Popstess in reply to Kazzybe

Thank you! Yea I don't know why I've immediately gone to beating myself up I should be thrilled I managed to run for 25 minutes! Instead I'm telling myself how rubbish I am, I'd never do this for anyone else I'd be super supportive but to myself in horrible.

Omg it could have been me writing this! I feel EXACTLY the same way! Iโ€™m in week 7 and I do manage the 25 mins but everyone overtakes me! It doesnโ€™t help that Iโ€™m 5ft 2 and my strides are short. I also keep wondering whether Iโ€™ll ever run faster. BUT I feel fitter and thatโ€™s the only thing that matters. Donโ€™t forget fellow runner, this is something you are doing for yourself so well done!! ๐Ÿ‘

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Popstess in reply to Kat1234_

Thank you, it's helpful to know there's other people out there feeling the same as me. Well done on also doing the 25 minutes! I think I'm going to spend the next 3 runs focusing on getting over my gremlins and just allowing myself to run.

Something that helped me was downloading another running app to use alongside the C25K. It monitors my speed and accounts the terrain etc so I can see where I was 'slow' and why! I have enjoyed watching my progress via this and it def gives me a buzz. This all being said I try to focus on rewarding myself for the distance I'm running and not my speed! I'm very self conscious too but just try to block everyone out and tell myself they don't know me and they didn't know me 7.5 weeks ago when I first started this! And they're never going to know me so who cares!

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Popstess in reply to Ivegothis

This is what I need to do block people out, I'm sure they couldn't care less what I'm up to and aren't the slightest bit interested in me so I've no idea why my brain is telling me that they're thinking I'm slow and shouldn't be out running.

I'm sure if anyone was to ask them about me after they'd passed me they probably wouldn't have even noticed me ๐Ÿ˜‚ so I am going to try and remember that when my gremlins start bullying me.

Hi Popstess, I doubt those thoughts will really go away, but at least you can see them for what they are. Be assured that lots of people who look confident on the outside are wrestling with thoughts like that too. If you can keep going out and doing what you want to do, the thoughts will start to take more of a back seat.

p.s. a few weeks ago I was running a footpath along the edge of a field. A dog walker a way up waited for me at the end of the narrow path. After a while I started to feel really embarrassed about my pace, thinking she's going to start looking at her watch in a minute or give me a dirty look when I get closer. As I jogged past her I said "I bet that took longer than your thought it would!" She gave me a big smile and said "no problem, you go at your own pace" in a "you go girl!" Kind of way ๐Ÿ˜Š. She could have easily been on this forum, I felt a little proud that I was capable of taking to her ๐Ÿ˜…

Thank you, I will keep going, aw that's lovely the dog Walker did that โ˜บ๏ธ Yes you should be proud for being able to talk to her ๐Ÿ˜

Hi. I know exactly what youโ€™re feeling. I graduated yesterday & still stress about โ€œam I going fast enoughโ€ & I havenโ€™t got to 5k in 30mins yet, but you know what, everybody on here will tell you thatโ€™s not important & they are so right! All thatโ€™s important for you now is to finish each run. Forget all about your speed, that will come later on. As for feeling self conscious, donโ€™t give that a thought. Your out there & your doing it, so good for you. Keep it going, I assure you the feeling when you complete C25K is worth all the sacrifice. Good luck.

Thank you, yea I need to remember that's the important thing getting to the end of the run not what speed I'm going.

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Dellie100Graduate

These gremlins follow me on my runs too, little blighters, although less as time has gone by. I find making eye contact and smiling at people I pass helps: most give a friendly smile back, some ignore and Iโ€™m sure a few think Iโ€™m one of the local nutters ๐Ÿคช It makes me realise that the negativity is all in my head and most people are just nice folk going about their day ๐Ÿ˜Š

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Popstess in reply to Dellie100

Little beggars get around don't they! ๐Ÿ‘น thank you that's a good idea, I find I put my head down because I'm embarrassed but I'll try eye contact and a smile from now on.

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SybilwGraduate

I think, like everyone says, we all feel the same at the start but soon realise no one really notices. I once was having a โ€˜badโ€™ run where I kept stopping to walk (post graduation) so when I met a neighbour talking to a stranger I was happy to stop and chat (theyโ€™d already seen me so might as well pretend I donโ€™t care!). Explained I was having a bad run and she said - well it looks good to me!! Itโ€™s all about perspective. Do you look at runners and criticise? No. Most people are like you. Itโ€™s good to let it out though. By the way Iโ€™m in my 60s so not your poster girl runner !! ๐Ÿคฃ Iโ€™m sure youโ€™ll soon feel less self conscious. Happy running

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Popstess in reply to Sybilw

Honestly no! I would NEVER think anything negative about any runner or Walker for that matter so I know these gremlins are wrong and there's a high chance people don't even notice and if they no they don't give it a second thought anyway. I think it's that feeling of being an imposter that gets me like who do I think I am I'm not a runner I'm over weight I'm unfit it's silly because of anyone else was saying this I'd be the first to cheer them on!

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SybilwGraduate in reply to Popstess

I totally knew you knew this but wanted to confirm youโ€™re not alone. Go you!

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Popstess in reply to Sybilw

Thank you so much it's really good to hear I'm not alone

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VWBWGraduate

Oh those blooming internal voices donโ€™t you just hate them?? ๐Ÿ˜ Truly truly truly do not fret, week 6 is a big step up... you have done so well, your speed will gradually improve and it really isnโ€™ t important. Getting out the front door and doing the run at all is a major accomplishment ( letโ€™s face it, sometimes just getting out of bed is a major accomplishment too!) I recently graduated but this week have gone back to W6R2 before tackling that 25 min run again. Youโ€™re doing a great job, sounds like a busy route you run too. Give yourself a big pat on the back!๐Ÿ˜ƒ ๐Ÿ‘

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Hepsibah in reply to VWBW

Blimey I can only dream of being on week 6! Impressed.And on the subject of 'other people', I'm a dog walker and have been guilty of (accidentally) getting the way of runners....you can guarantee the woof will wander across their path just at the last minute! I say live and let live, theres gonna be push chairs, toddlers, people looking down at mobile phones, dogs, scooters, cyclists the list goes on, you can only do your best and if you get tangled just laugh, if its your fault say sorry, if not smile and say no problem. Easy to say ignore the voices, hard to do, but it does sound as if you are talking back telling them you're OK. Everyone needs to vent occasionally it doesn't mean you are negative - just human.

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Popstess in reply to Hepsibah

Thank you, I'm sure you will get to week 6 soon enough, I can't quite believe 6 weeks have already passed to be honest, feel like I was only trying to talk myself into starting this programme not long ago. I did apologise but they were a little rude in their reaction but that's probably all in my head anyway because I'm super sensitive!!

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Popstess in reply to VWBW

Thank you, it's a bit of an odd route really but it's convenient for these longer runs. My quieter route is better but it's too short and I'd have to run round it a few times which I find a bit off putting. Maybe I'll look at other routes. I don't like running along busy roads either with lots of traffic so limets my choice a bit too.

I think we all have gremlins in our head when running, like you I think Iโ€™m not good enough, too old to be this ( though Iโ€™m only 59!), but when Iโ€™ve completed my 3 runs I feel empowered as each week goes by I feel stronger and very proud of myself. Carry on and youโ€™ll achieve your goal and be proud!I have just completed week 5 and so proud I ran for 20mins.

Keep up the good running ๐Ÿƒโ€โ™€๏ธ

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Popstess in reply to JanetB1962

Congratulations on completing week 5 that was a toughy!! Thank you so much for the supportive words.

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PlattszoGraduate

Oh sweetie.... I know exactly what you mean. I felt like this too and on my last run these thoughts popped into my head too.

But do you know what? I mentally stick my two fingers up to anyone who is passing by walking or in a car if they are thinking these things (which they probably aren't). I believe fellow runners on that you pass understand how difficult this is and are supportive and encouraging with a little wave or smile or even thumbs up. If they don't make eye contact, then I believe they are concentrating on their own run.

Be proud of what you are doing. Remember, no matter what, you are lapping EVERYONE else on the couch. And besides which, you completed week 6 of C25K. Go you!!! This is not easy, if it was everyone would be running. You have achieved amazing things! Keep going!!!! ๐Ÿค—โค

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Popstess in reply to Plattszo

Thank you it's nice to know I'm not alone with these thoughts. If I'm honest I have these thoughts in lots of areas in my life so it's not a wonder they have transferred over to my running. I generally lack confidence. Yes thats true and I'm sure no ones thinking anything at all it's like you say our minds that make it up and make us feel bad. If I spoke to others how I spoke to myself I'd have no friends ๐Ÿ˜‚ why do I put up with such bad behaviour from myself to myself?!

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PlattszoGraduate in reply to Popstess

It's easy to say don't be hard on yourself.... people are always telling me the same, so I think I get it...

A counsellor once taught me that the more we think these thoughts, we actually create pathways in the brain so the default is to think them.. BUT, the brain is actually not clever. We can consciously over ride them. You can 'note' them and replace them with something more positive. Then, the positive pathways become default.

Some brain training you could try out ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‰

Well I graduated last year, August I think and I have yet to overtake another runner unless they are walking. Even then sometimes I think they might overtake me, not happened yet though. If you push yourself too much, you will suffer injury so follow the plan and just enjoy ๐Ÿ˜‰

Thank you yea this is the thing isn't it, I don't want to push myself and end up injured. I got injured when I did a similar plan to this with a running club over 5 years ago and it put me out of action and I never took it up again so i definitely don't want to injure myself.

Wow I am absolutely blown away with the amount of kind words and support on here. I cannot thank you enough. This community is amazing! It's truly truly amazing! Thank you so much to everyone that contributes I definitely wouldn't have kept this programme up without the support on here so thank you!

Well done on completing week 6, thatโ€™s amazing! In regards to your pace and being self conscious imagine looking at things with a different mindset and I wonder how many people you run/jog/plod past who you inspire, how many people might just see you and think โ€œyes good for themโ€ or โ€œIโ€™m going to give that a tryโ€ Iโ€™m 100% sure everyone who notices you running never thinks a negative thought about you, youโ€™re doing amazing ๐Ÿ’–

Thank you! That's a lovely way to look at it. I know I've found lots of people on here inspiring id never think I'd be someone that would inspire anyone but that's a lovely way to think of it โ˜บ๏ธ

We are all doing C25K for ourselves. We all set our own pace, decided if we need to repeat a run, if our bodies need an extra day off. I know easy to say, but don't be so hard on yourself. You have completed week 6, so you can run for 25 minutes. If somebody told you 6 months ago that you would be doing this, you might have giggled in disbelief and definitely raised an eyebrow. But now you are doing it. Be proud and keep putting one foot in front of the other

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Popstess in reply to Shonalu

Thank you, there's no way I would have thought 6 months ago I'd be able to run for 25 minutes!

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Doris-1950Graduate

I know just how you feel .... i was feeling the same . The way round it for me was to run early in the morning when very few folk about. But in reality we should be proud of ourselves for getting off the couch and giving it a go!!

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Popstess in reply to Doris-1950

Thank you it's nice to know I'm not the only one, I've thought about running earlier but 1 I'm not a morning person and 2 that route i wouldn't feel safe on early in the morning really. I need to look into different routes actually

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