I went into the run, misguidedly thought I would breeze through, alas I was sharply rebuked by a case of the toxic 20s.
We decided to go back to the secret park today, for old times sake, revisit the mini circuit around the skating ramps, then around the swings and play area, then the carpark. I'm not sure if it was the memory of my struggles that made me feel yak today or if I just wasn't feeling the run. My legs were complaining, my back was unhappy, at once point my feet started cramping which was a new one for me 2 months and 4 days from the start. I really, really did not want to be running.
Hit the half way mark and thought I can't do this, and started to run home....and then thought 'I've never been up that road before'...we did our little exploration and once again headed home...but then ooooh we've not been down here before either. it got easier...and easier...and then I hit the Joy Mode. OMG then with the exploring we inadvertently came across a hill - hills and I fundamentally disagree both the going up and coming down...I like a flat surface. But with Joy Mode activated, I actually ran up the hill *shock horror*, no worries, it didn't even rob me of breath. I still had more in the tank...oh my goodness Michael told me to stop running (Euphoric Mode activated)and I couldn't, I just couldn't it was like he was telling me to stop breathing. So I kept on running, we both did...I'm justifying it as a victory lap...it was only an extra 3-4 mins I didn't want to get silly - but honestly I think I could have gone on for longer...
I think the plan now is to consolidate for a couple of weeks then gradually build up to hour runs following the 10% rule. I think I distance running may be the way forward for me, to negate the toxic 20.
I just need to say thank you so much to you all for your support so far, advice, encouragement and inspiration all. You guys have really made this journey possible for me and that is no exaggeration. I've posted about the majority of my runs, the good, the bad, the snot dribblingly ugly and I've never been unanswered. Thank you so much for taking the time to encourage me all along the way.
For those starting out, please don't be afraid to post or to ask. there is always someone who is going through the same thing as you or has got through it and the accountability of posting really helps.
It's been one hell of a journey! I'M A RUNNER NOW...but you aren't getting rid of me that easily - you'll have to pry me out with heavy duty JCB type vehicles.
Thank you all again
Edit: with oversized graduation sized glasses of pink fizz! Happy duck, happy jiggles ππ₯