Some of you contacted me via a private message, having noticed I haven't been around for a while.
First of all, I'd like to thank you for your kind carefulness; I am touched by how closed to me you are.
You might remember I've been facing a redundancy consultation process since last month; it did not proceed well and it concluded this morning with the confirmation of my redundancy. As you can imagine, I did not take it very well...
For my entire life I've either been studying or working and this is the first time I am unemployed; I am a bit scared by the idea and quite worried about what to now do and how to pay bills. Most of all, as stupid as it might sound, I cannot help but to feel "ashamed", as if it was my fault, despite knowing perfectly well it was not. Strange things, those feelings.
Apart from that, I am fine (well, I am still overweight and I am not rejuvenating, but you know what I mean) and I just need some time to absorb the hit, let the storm I have in my head calm down and then figure out what to do.
I'll be away for a little longer, but I promise I'll be back; in the meantime don't worry for me and rest assure that your affection didn't get unnoticed or unappreciated. You are a wonderful lot and I am lucky to have met you.
Thank you all and see you soon.