Still finding it hard to have the energy and mental will to get out of the door in amongst life etc. But today I am working from home, have a million home things to do ahead of my daughter in law and grand daughter arriving at lunchtime, and several actual work pieces to complete by the end of today, and my neighbour's having all windows replaced- lots of banging and shouting and drilling. Argh. I put on my running gear (really quite difficult at the mo with very bad arms & shoulders- quite funny wrestling a sports bra) and went out into the day, week 2 podcast itching to go. Joyous. within 30 seconds I resolved to really, really try and remember how much I love being out and feeling empowered- and to try and let that memory overcome my problems with going out the front door.
I smiled at everyone, got some smiles back, felt that the 90 seconds running were over very quickly, and wish I didn't have to take rest days- rest days break my rhythm and rapidly become rest weeks if I'm not careful, it seems to take forever to get anything done including getting impetus to do something!
I'm trying not to be too cross with myself for losing tone- I can feel everything wobbling again- but hell, isn't it wonderful to be outside in the air running even if I'm only doing 90 secs at a time just now- to anyone else suffering depression, if the clouds lift even slightly do consider getting out and trying running - C25K podcasts are great- it really does help and gives you, at least for the time you are out, a real feeling of being ALIVE.