I needed to get out of the house this evening so went for a run. Neither my head nor heart were in it. I ran on auto pilot. At the 17 minute mark I was completely ready to give up. At the 25 minute mark I almost broke down, but I was at the gym and refuse to cry in public. I slowed down to a walk for about  20 seconds to drink water and compose myself, then ran for over 3 minutes to make up for the break. I've slept for 8 hours in the last 58. I'm counting this run as completed.

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  • I find running lets my head see things in perspective.  I normally return from a run feeling more at ease with things than when I set out.  It sounds from previous posts that you have things on your mind that are difficult to deal with whether they are in perspective or not. Time is a great healer, as it lets us think about stuff sufficiently to come to terms with it.  Some things will never stop being painful, but with time we are able to accept them, and move on with life. 

    I hope that you will feel better soon, and that your running will help you to have that space to let you come to terms with things.

  • Running helps clear my head too - that's why I set out last week to run, hoping to feel better. I guess what I've been going through was too big and too immediate last week. One day at a time.

  • You are right, you completed this run.

    Your running buddy would be very proud of you.

  • Well done

  • And so it is... well done.

    Hold those memories, Shivani, be strong. You are going to do this. :)

  • Most definitely completed- well done for pushing through. 

  • Hi Shivani - just checking in to see if you are ok? I read your article about running and your running buddy and it was so beautiful. There are no words that suffice so I just hope you have managed to get some sleep since your last post and that you are as ok as you can be. very best wishes.

  • I'm doing better, thank you. One day at a time.

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