Well, the above title says it all. Planned to do R3 after a supermarket trip last night but by the time we got home it was nearer half past eight and my other half was doing tea and I didn't want to go out after. Anyway, planned to get up at 6.15 this morning and do it then. I had the most awful night's sleep, constantly thinking if I don't get to sleep soon then I won't be able to do the run and then getting frustrated for not being able to sleep - kinda got myself into a circle and basically I think I was so apprehensive about the whole thing and it played on my mind so much that I worried myself awake all night!!!! Anyway, didn't make the 6.15 alarm but was determined to do it as although the majority of me wants to give up there is always that little bit in your head that tells you not to quit. Made an excuse to go into work late, got my gear on and started. I covered the timer up but for the first five minutes of the run I was thinking "i'll just stop now - I can't do it, I can't run for 20 minutes, my knees are hurting, it's pointless anyway as the pace that I'm going is pathetic - no wonder I'm not loosing any weight, and on and on and on .............. Anyway, to cut a long story short, I did stick with it and my knees were ok and I did it but boy, was it hard going. As much as I didn't enjoy it I did have a huge sense of "yehhhhh, I slow jogged for 20 minutes!" I feel silly, yet again, as everybody on this lovely forum tells you that you can do it and its a case of mind over matter - I could do it, I just didn't realise that I could. Apologies for the long post x
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