I shouldn't have gone out. Week 7 was meant to commence tomorrow but all week I have been itching to get out after the high of declaring Week 6 done and I kept plotting when I could go out again and when would I be doing my graduating run. But I knew that my body needed rest partly because I'd not been sleeping and well post Week 6 I was tired and in pain - post exertional malaise - not the normal oh I didn't cool down properly but pain relating to my M.E.
So queue this morning and the good part of my brain - who we shall call Good Bunny - said oh look 6.30 I think we are getting back to our sleep routine, now why don't you see if you can get back to sleep another hour or so will do you good you have that interview this afternoon.
Now the bad part of my brain - who we shall call Bad Bunny - Oh your kidding right go back to sleep! No you want to go for a run. Go on get up. Run run run run. It will be fun.
Good Bunny - shut up bad bunny we are resting
Bad Bunny - run run run
Good Bunny - no, resting we dont want to turn up to our interview red faced, tired and slurring words, how would that look?
Bad Bunny - erm like you know how to have a good time *sniggers*
Good Bunny - Oh haha no we are resting.
This back and forth went on for a while
8.30 am Bad Bunny - *whispers* come on lets ditch the boring old fart Good Bunny and go running your know you reaaaaaaaallllllllly want to.
Running kit on, dog hitched up and off we go.
It started off well, Ferd was being really good we past lots of runners heading towards us and said our hellos.
God I am not liking this are you sure that was only 5 minutes, felt more like 10? Ok carry on.
See that there is a dog walker up ahead, oh its fine they are going in the same direction and I think by the time we catch them up it will be time for us to turn around.
We must have past the half way marker by now? Oh wait its week 7 so maybe Laura is pushing us mentally and we are about to get a 15 minute time check.
Oh arse another dog walker coming towards me, Oh great have to put Ferd on his lead. That went without a hitch and off we continued but instead of running by my side as he normally does he decided no I want to say hello to the other dog - 22kg of muscle dog against 5'2" of me and well when he has a mind to he can actually pull me off my feet. He caught me off guard and I wasn't prepared. Tried to carry on and then it was like oh f@%$ it I am really not enjoying it and I can be arsed so I stopped turned round and started to walk home.
About a minute later - well done you've done 12 and half minutes.
Ok I though maybe I will treat it like an interval and so I stared to run again. I hardly got started before I really couldn't be bothered. I really really wasn't enjoying it and I really didn't want to carry on. I did carry on listening to the pod cast and for the first time Laura really annoyed me and even walking to it wasn't pleasurable. My ears hurt and I don't know if that was the music or my M.E. playing up (I suffer noise sensitivity).
I don't know if the failure was because I really shouldn't have made an attempt today, if I'm not really ready for week 7 or if it really is the music that's holding me back, I find it boring and then I get bored and my mind wanders and then I lose concentration. Maybe that's the problem, I'm bored, its hard to do/enjoy something when boredom creeps in.
I am thinking I need to try week 7 again after all I know I can run for the time given - but I might give my own music a try and see if that helps. I also think that unless I am going to go between 6 to 7 am in the morning then I really do have to leave Ferd at home, its fine (mostly) as long as we don't come across any dog walkers.
P.S the picture is of Bad Bunny aka Wooster WooWoo he is one of my Giant Bunnies. His brother Jeeves aka Good Bunny is the grey one behind him. I have 2 Giants both are French Lops. I also have 2 little bunnies. I like bunnies