Again I am letting the gremlins beat me this morning. I am focussing on the negatives and not the positives I am happy I have got this far. I think sometimes its human nature to say 'I cant believe I have achieved this' and part of me feels that way but I also knew that I would. I dont mean that to sound arrogant - im not that way at all but I just meant I had to look at it that I would do it or it would become a mountain that I wouldnt be able to climb and also in reading lots and lots of blogs, there were many many people achieving this that started from nothing and managed it so I thought, if they can do it so can i!!!!
I feel different in that I can run longer than I could before but nothing much else has changed and I'm wondering why. I havent lost any weight, I havent changed shape, clothes dont fit me any differently etc. Im still exactly the same person but can just run a little longer. Maybe thats why perhaps I'm feeling a bit weird and negative, like I havent achieved that much at all. I KNOW I should focus on the positives and see I have changed but I guess I wanted this to be life changing but I'm waiting for the big explosion.
I guess in reading other peoples blogs where you see how life changing it has been for them and how hard its been and how much they have been through you can see they thoroughly deserve to have got their badge.
Oooh im being a negative nelly i know Just worried I guess that if i havent seen any results from this in how its changed me then once I finish this programme I wont keep this up
Why has my bubble burst Need to figure out today how to view this differently.