Today made a month since my baby passed away. The day was a struggle, felt so sad and alone since no one else is affected. I don't know what else to do. Life is so hard already, he was my joy he made me extremely happy and picked me up when I was down. I can't not blame myself with the What If. I keep thinking maybe if I was there just maybe he would have made it through or maybe he would have lived a little longer, just to have someone with him. The whole fact about it is he went alone. No one there to make him feel loved and I don't know what pain he was in and he just passed on not knowing he was loved deeply. How can I live knowing I wasn't there for my child when he needed me most. I try to think back on the good times but it just makes me miss him more. I visit his grave everyday and I talk with him but I just feel like I'm to blame cause I wasn't there. An besides there had to be a reason why he came back home. This just keep eating me up and that bitter sweet moment of finding him is on replay in my mind. I don't know what to do again.
In Loving Memory Of Gingervitis - Bereavement Care ...
In Loving Memory Of Gingervitis
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Charmerbluegirl
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chloe40Administrator
Hi Charmerbluegirl
Welcome to our Community.
I'm truly sorry for your loss.
You'll find lots of amazing members here to support you, you are not alone.
Chloe
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