I am losing my mind. Every day I wake up and I go to school and I endlessly suffer, I walk around as a zombie because I feel nothing for anyone. Every day I wake up and my heart breaks a little more and I die inside a little more. I am losing my battle and I don’t know what to do. I need to be the one to pick myself up and to allow myself to feel better but I can’t. I can’t do it. I’m breaking and I’m dying and I’m losing it. I go to my guidance counselor and she tells me things that I can’t do because I’m weak and I’m so tired of existing and my heart hurts and I can’t deal with everything or anything.
I have nothing to hold onto. I have nobody. I am so lost. I want to feel better. I can’t. I’m my own enemy. It’s my own fault. I’m dying.