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I am losing my mind. Every day I wake up and I go to school and I endlessly suffer, I walk around as a zombie because I feel nothing for anyone. Every day I wake up and my heart breaks a little more and I die inside a little more. I am losing my battle and I don’t know what to do. I need to be the one to pick myself up and to allow myself to feel better but I can’t. I can’t do it. I’m breaking and I’m dying and I’m losing it. I go to my guidance counselor and she tells me things that I can’t do because I’m weak and I’m so tired of existing and my heart hurts and I can’t deal with everything or anything.

I have nothing to hold onto. I have nobody. I am so lost. I want to feel better. I can’t. I’m my own enemy. It’s my own fault. I’m dying.

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I miss my mom so much every day and my heart is breaking every single day and I can’t go on

chloe40Administrator in reply to iriss

Hi iriss,

I want to hug you so tightly, bless you. You've been through so much and of course it's just too much for someone so young.

iriss, if you wish you can message me, please do and if you would like extra support please come in to the young adults forum too.

You really need to talk this through and I would like you to contact Papyrus below and Samaritans if you would like. We have lots of other contacts for you in forum below come and join me.


Mood juice moodjuice.scot.nhs.uk/about...

Samaritans freephone 116 123 Email them jo@samaritans.org

Breathing Space 0800 83 85 87

Papyrus HOPELineUK on 0800 068 41 41

pat@papyrus-uk.org or text 07786 209697

Take care

Chloe x

GoGo_JoJo in reply to chloe40

Unfortunately iriss is in the US. I've sent her Samaritans details as well as Teenline as like you I really think talking it out would be a great help. 👍🤞

chloe40Administrator in reply to GoGo_JoJo

Thank you GoGo_JoJo x


Oh iriss I'm so sorry your counsellor wasn't more helpful or supportive. Please ring Samaritans or Teenline. That's what they are they for, to give you a voice at the end of the phone. If you don't want a stranger ring your aunt and just tell her everything. If you feel as bad as you seem to, you have nothing to lose in reaching out and asking for help.

Whether they are feeling like much help you do have your Dad and your siblings and your half brothers. Just one of them is all it takes. My money is on your aunt, she must be hurting with the loss of her sister. She will understand.

I'm rooting for you. You can do this 💛

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