I’m new here after being told to visit this page from another community. I lost my father two weeks ago tonight. As of yet I haven’t broke down and begun grieving the only thing is that it has triggered my anxiety and depression back to the worst place I have been. I wake up with headaches just as bad as I fell to sleep with. I very often wish I could go and join my Dad but these thoughts leave me guilty. I was his caregiver for 7 months and have taken time away from work to do so. I can’t face going back yet but I now feel so empty. I feel that I can’t talk to any friends and family about how I am feeling. I was with him when he passed away and although it was peaceful and I believe he was pain free I keep replaying the moment again and again in my mind.