I don't know if my last post got through but I have to say how grateful I am in the last 24 hours to be able to read how others are coping with bereavement, like me, it is not easy and life will never be the same again.
I was my Mother's main carer for 6 years 24/7 but I would do it again without any hesitation. I am sorry I left the room for a minute or two and when I returned she had passed away, I was sorry I wasn't with her. My sister who rarely visits should have been with her but she needed to rest in the spare room.
I tried CRUSE twice but I was told they were busy and to call back later and years ago when my depression was bad after marriage break up, Samaritans said the same thing but now I feel this website will help me. Thank you all.