Train stress.

Morning guys not feeling as low this morning not sure if that's down to having a better nights sleep or if I'm just in a more positive mood.

Feeling a bit more anxious today though. Feeling edgy and restless. Think I might have looked like a bit of a crazy person this morning while waiting for my bus as I was pacing up and down the road. Oh well maybe I am a little crazy What didn't help is that the train was absolutely rammed this morning and I started to feel very claustrophobic and closed in. Now I've never been the biggest fan of being a packed train, but it was a lot worse today I was on edge and my heart was going like the clappers. Is this a normal part of suffering from anxiety? Had to pick a point on the floor to concentrate. Still trying to calm myself down not really working at the mo which means breakfast was a no go as my stomach is in bits.

Well I'm on nights after today not sure how I'll cope with it hopefully not having to come to the yard and put up with the crap I usually do might help.

So I hope everyone has a happy week.

Willrich.

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Yeah unfortunatley those are all sypmtoms of anxiety,,,,,,,

when is the meeting??

Try and keep calm, once you know whats happening you can crack on with your life and you will be ok, honestly

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Not sure yet she is away at the mo so we've not really spoke it will probably be the weekend. I've just got to make it through this week. Seeing my doctor Wednesday so that may help. I defiantly need this meeting to happen because its all I'm thinking about.

How are you doing today?

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I dont envy you the meeting and I think how youre feeling is perfectly normal in the circumstances....... Good idea seeing your doc though, He may be able to give you some help of some sort.......

Errrr Im ok..... just ok ta......L

I know Ive done the right thing..... ending up texting him last night though saying I miss you and cant you move here,,,,, but he said he cant.....

So Im gona really try hard now to not text and get over it...... Once you know 100% in your head its over I think you can focus on what you need to do, as hard as it is.... The confusion comes when I start thinking... maybe it could work... and Im back to square one!!

Back to work tomorrow so hopefully this will help.......

Let us know how you are

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It is really hard not texting when you've still got so many things you want to say. I made the mistake in the first few weeks of the breakup of texting I wasn't saying to much other than hope your ok and having a good day. We last spoke last Tuesday and its been so hard not being in contact, but I think it's for the best until we get to sit down and talk to each other face to face. That's been one of the hard things that this entire break up has been done over the phone.

I know that once we've spoke if its all over that I'm gonna have to cut all ties with her for a bit so no text no Facebook or anything. I know I've got to do this for my own sanity. I did remove her off Facebook then re-requested and she accepted. Not sure if that's a good sign or not.

Don't worry I'll keep you all updated your not gonna get rid of me now lol.

Hope your Monday is going ok

Willrich. x

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Willrich

Sending big hugs and positive thoughts.

Good Luck

Love Seyi xxx

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Thanks Seyi hope your well?

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Hi Willrich I am doing alright thank you trust your having a good day

Hugs

Seyi xxx

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My day is going ok still feeling fairly optimistic. Still a little anxious, but I'm coping.

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i get like that on a train, saying that though i havnt been on one in a while but i hate really packed places and try and focus out the window. hope your weeend was ok. the late shift......my boyfriend hates the late shift he has to do it every other week poor sod. i know its hard to know what to do when you have so much different advice coming at you in ref to your meeting. be yourself, dont beg cos your better than that and just lay all the cards out and what will be will be. hope your day is going well. x