Hello after writing my blog yesterday and writing down how i feel it made me think of wat situations was making me feel so anxious and low. In a previous blog a wk or so ago i mentioned a so called mate that was cumming down my house constantly with her young children. Constantly on about her ex and putting all her shit on me. She made me feel invilved and just neva shut up about it once. Plus she let her kids run mad and caurse chaos in my house. I have alot of mates that pop room with little children but they dont let there kids wreck my house and i dont let mine in other people4. Im not a house proud person, but i do like it clean and tidy but understand with little children that things am gonna be a mess but not wrecked. ANYWAY ive ignored this sort of friend alot the past few wks but she as constantly all day blew up my fone none stop, i kept my distance because i know whe was bringing my anxiety on. Shes a lazy cow. She will fone my OH and ask him to drive 20 mins to her house to fetch her fags or gas. Wen i was single and i state i still do it know even thou im with my partner. On the way back from picking my boys up from school i will make sure i get wat we need like fags, so we havent got to go back out. If i forget one of us will go out and get wat we need. Yes shes a single mom woth 3 young kids, she got a double push chair and the eldest can walk. So to me before it gets dark and its time for the kids to go to bed she shud get off her arse and so it her self. Yes i feel sorry for her as shes lonely, but after a few wks of thinking of it i realise how lazy shes being. She fones my OH most nites to go to the shop for her which last nite i put a stop to. I was having a down day and shes pushing all my wrong buttons. So i messaged her said yes i feel sorry for u i get it ur lonely but uve brought my anxiety on so much ova the last mth, that ive put a wall up with u and that wall isnt going to move. I said theres more single mothers out there ur not the only one. Uve got to grow up and stand on ur own to feet. I dont mind u telling me ur problems but i dont want all ur shit all the while. U need to get up of ur lazy backside and stoop relying on ur ex and my OH to do everytthing for u thats including going to the shop for u which is just around the corner. Stop going on about ur ex and spend more time thinking about ur kids. Nasty? Yes but the truth. I have since blocked her off my fone so she cant get in touch. So today i have felt relived and more myself. I took the stage of getting rid of wat i knew was causing my anxiety to come back. Have i done the rite thing? Or was i to harsh with her? I dont know. Anyway sorry about the long and boring blog but just needed to let it out xxx
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