Hello every1......

[leehow79]

Jst 2 let u know that im still around, bin reading bogs but feel 2 ill 2 awnser as took a very bad turn, bin strugling wiv my hlth + anxiety 4 a good while now. went 2 drs got 2 go 4 an xray 4 suspected pnumonia plus stopped eating all 2gether, think i might hav an ulcer or somat, my stomache is so tight + leaking so much acid that i cant even eat any more, bin put on strong antibiotics + double omeprazole but its not workin + not 2 even speak about anxiety, dnt think i can go on + feel like goin 2 hospital which i hav never dne b4. also gettin migraine type headaches daily as i think theyre stomache related. does any1 know how u treat a stomache ulcer. jst lied on sofa all day 2 petrified 2 move + 2 petrified i hav 2 run, cnt get up + about as very weak + feel like fainting, most probably due 2 not eating. oh my god didnt think my anxiety cld get any worse, really feel like throwing myself under a bus 2 escape, really really cnt go on. also feel really odd like im on a different planet + goin in2 phycosis.

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Hi leehow

No bus please ok , your our friend on here now , so forget that

You are still on this planet luv , even though I no the feeling

Sorry things seem to have taken a turn for the worse ,

I would imagine with meds & no food you will feel faint & weak , not a good combination , can you eat simple things , a small piece of toast , biscuite , anything just to line your stomach , if its empty it will make the acid worse

I no it may not feel like it but they will get to the bottom of this & make you well again

You have been missed , Roses garden is open , go in there love

Love

whywhy

xxx

[leehow79]

Thanku whywhy.x

[ellabella]

Hi Leeanne , I really think you need to try and get something inside you love and fast. Have you tried drinking even a very milky cup of tea with perhaps a couple of biscuits? You could use a straw and sip it. Some of your meds love will not work properly or cause more damage to an ulcer if you don't eat with them. When I am bad I have to have digestives dipped in tea. It's easy to get down , or mashed banana,soup, mashed potato's with a bit of oxo gravy? It will give you a bit of strength love to get better quicker. It will be your chest that is tight if you have pneumonia. Even hot lemonade with paracetamol and honey will ease it a bit plus hot water bottle on your back or chest, hope you feel a little better soon lovie,

Love and Hugs x Ella x

[leehow79]

Thanku ellabella, goin 2 try 2 eat somthin now. how come u think ur gettin better or u think that anxiety cldn possibly get any worse + then bam it hits u even harder than u ever imagined. im so tired but if i try 2 sleep i start 2 really panick + hav 2 get bck up even though im on strong tranqilisers the anxiety/panick is worse than ever. need 2 try 2 go 2 hospital 2morrow + got 2 hav an xray anyway, jst feel so tired + drained but cant sleep or relax, i really am goin out of my mind, im losing my grasp on reality ere. hope u r feelin well ella... kindest regards leeanne.x

[ellabella]

Oh Darling , can't somebody take you? While you are there ask to see a doctor then they will look at your x-rays straight away. They are all on computer now so no need to wait like 10 days before!!! Your body is fighting the infection so that is why you feel so weak hun. Good you are going to try something to eat...it will give your body some fuel so it can fight the germs. I'm sure anxiety lowers our immune system...as even a cold knocks me for a six! Poor lass you won't even be able to do the deep breathing, but you can count them....pass a bit of time as well. Shut your eyes when you've been fed and breathe as slow as you can, in hold a few secs then slowly out. Hopefully you may drop off to sleep for a bit love. Hopefully you will be able to get a lift tomorrow, please don't try and go on the bus in that state. Ring GP's early and tell them your situation. They might have an agreement with the hospital with cars for patients. lots of love x Ella x

[leehow79]

Thanku 4 ur kind + caring words ellabella. wen im this bad nothin seems 2 hlp im in such a constant state of intense panic that i cnt relax enough 2 do breathin exersises, they dnt actualy work 4 me most of the time, i think its bcause there not actual panick attacks as such but intense anxiety. no 1 shld hav 2 live like this, i wldn whish it on any1. kindest regards leeanne.x

[fadedlizard]

Hi darling,

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. There is nothing worse than the exhaustion that comes with depression - it's like walking through wet cement. Please try to eat a little, it will help.

Also consider getting the doctor to come out to you - you really shouldn't be going through this on your own.

Love,

Lizard.xxx

[leehow79]

Thanku faded lizzard, my doctors dnt do home visits ive got more chance of winning the lottery. im jst lied ere 2 anxios 2 b in control of my own mind + body. minutes feel like days + days feel like mnths. i am really losing the will 2 live ere, am on major tranquilisers but still get know restbite frm this hell hole im in, in my mind theyre really is only 1 awnser but thanku 4 ur kind words.

[fadedlizard in reply to leehow79]

Oh darling, I've been there but never for the length of time you have. It must be unbearable. I know I always tell myself "it's not bad enough" but actually it is and you can ring for an out of hours doctor or go to A&E and demand to see the emergency psych team. You need and deserve better treatment than this.xxx

[leehow79 in reply to fadedlizard]

Thanku lizzard, i do hav better days were i think im on the road 2 makin my 1st step 2 recovery but it always comes bck after a week or so wiv a vengence. was under the crisis team as u know but finished wiv them a little over a week ago, i dnt think they knew wot 2 do wiv me bcause they jst give u meds + not tolerating a hell of a lot of them they didnt know wot else 2 do, was put on diazepam + quetiapine (antiphycotic they use as a major tranqiliser) but knothin works + i dnt know why. am on list 4 c.b.t, like id b able 2 go in this state. anyway if things get worse or dnt improve gonna go up 2 hospital, anyway id like 2 thanku 4 ur kind words.

[sheffieldwed]

ah you do sound in wars love and like the others advise try and drink and eat a little but often have a warm drink and if you feel the same ask for a doc or go to A&E for some advise and help dont suffer alone and maybe getting some medical advise will help put your mind at rest hope you get better real soon xxx

[leehow79 in reply to sheffieldwed]

Thanku 4 ur kind words.x

[Minnie12]

You would need to eat some gentle foods that are gentle on your stomach as banana is very good for stomach and replace the loss of salt & sugar in your body, cup of tea, plain biscuits, soup, bread dip in soup and yoghurts? No or less foods can upset your stomach..... Why don't you treat yourself a hot bath with radox then snuggle up in bed with cup of tea or herbal tea and read some books or tv? Hope u will feel better soon!! Xx

[leehow79]

Thanku minnie. managed 2 eat most of a banana butty 4 my breakfast, tea, supper u cld call it, hav still bin drinkin tea but im now finding that hard. watchin tv now but so fed up after watchin 4 over 4mnths solid. kindest regards leeanne.x