Im really pi**ed off today. Still got that stupid cough, it wakes me up of a night and is worse of a morning, not so bad during the day tho. Went the drs and he gave me a powder inhaler because the other inhaler was making my throat raw and my voice is damned sexy at the moment haha, he told me its a virus and iv got to let it run its course, so he's gave me a spray for my throat which im scared to take cos he said it stings, im sorry, im not into pain, so i think il give tha one a miss lol. Anyway, i supposed to be going for an interview today, but im not going cos i had a dummy run yesterday to find the place, which is 19 miles away, we took my OH car and we ended up in a ditch and couldnt find the place, it was in the middle of nowhere and a small village, at 8pm at night no one would open their door to us to help us, except some old man, who wasnt very pleasant when he asked who was knocking at the door. We eventually got the car out the ditch, minus one wing mirror which had been torn right off and loads of scratches down his brand new mondeo, which i really, really feel terribly guilty for, even tho it wasnt me driving, i did tell him to be careful when he was reversing down a bumpy tracky road with ditches down either side!!! But i cant help feeling awful about it, and if i had the money, i would get the car fixed thats how bad i feel.
Im so fed up, this job would have saved me from going under, emotionally and financially, but its really too far, considering i only passed my test 2 years ago, iv got anxiety and panic issues, i would not be able to drive that far every day, i would be too exhausted to work when i got there.