fed up

Im really pi**ed off today. Still got that stupid cough, it wakes me up of a night and is worse of a morning, not so bad during the day tho. Went the drs and he gave me a powder inhaler because the other inhaler was making my throat raw and my voice is damned sexy at the moment haha, he told me its a virus and iv got to let it run its course, so he's gave me a spray for my throat which im scared to take cos he said it stings, im sorry, im not into pain, so i think il give tha one a miss lol. Anyway, i supposed to be going for an interview today, but im not going cos i had a dummy run yesterday to find the place, which is 19 miles away, we took my OH car and we ended up in a ditch and couldnt find the place, it was in the middle of nowhere and a small village, at 8pm at night no one would open their door to us to help us, except some old man, who wasnt very pleasant when he asked who was knocking at the door. We eventually got the car out the ditch, minus one wing mirror which had been torn right off and loads of scratches down his brand new mondeo, which i really, really feel terribly guilty for, even tho it wasnt me driving, i did tell him to be careful when he was reversing down a bumpy tracky road with ditches down either side!!! But i cant help feeling awful about it, and if i had the money, i would get the car fixed thats how bad i feel.

Im so fed up, this job would have saved me from going under, emotionally and financially, but its really too far, considering i only passed my test 2 years ago, iv got anxiety and panic issues, i would not be able to drive that far every day, i would be too exhausted to work when i got there.

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Know your p::sed off today,but you made me "LOL"really did,when I read about the sexy voice and then "only passed my test 2years ago"I really like that.Most people pass their test and drove nonstop straight away,even go straight on to motorways.I am smiling writing this,I thought this anxiety thing was quite new to me,but I passed my test about 35 years ago,but never drove for the first 10 years"because what if something happens"When I did eventually drive I had to get a couple of refresher lessons,then always plan my route and dummy runs before hand,sit in car deep breathing and trying not to panic before I drove off!

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Im glad i made someone smile today, i make myself laugh sometimes. I told my daughter today im not talking anymore, im giving my voice a rest, 5 mins after i said that, i was chattin away again cos my daughter asked me a question :/. My throat isnt sore tho, just my voice is really hoarse, like gravelly, some men would find my voice sexy on a chat line hahaha. I think with all the coughing iv done, iv strained me vocal chords, or something, good job im not a singer, mind you, it might be an improvement on my singing on the karaoke!

I have a morbid fear of motorways, i wont go on them unless my OH is in the car with me, they scare me, and iv got an up to date sat nav which tells me what lane to get into, but im still scared. Il face my fears one day, and think what all the fuss was about.

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Aw bless ya Linny. I am sure you will look back one day and read what you put and have a chuckle...............one day,

Another lovely person having a bad day. Bigs hugs to ya. Your OH may like your husky voice. xx