First time I've done anything like this

[hairybiker]

I have never talked about my anxiety to anyone before including my long term partner even though she has called me a hermit in the past .

I have been looking back through my life as far back as i can remember and it all started being dragged to school as a young boy probably 6 or 7 not sure as i do suffer from memory loss .

I am now in my early 40's and i seem to be getting worse even going to the diy shop is a nightmare just been today and i couldn't wait to get back in the car .I just don't know what to do about it all as I am getting more and more depressed by the day .

I went to see the doctor a couple of months back and they wern't very helpful i thought at the time i was suffering from depression and spoke to doctor about it and she wanted to put me on anti depressants and i said no ,she did give me a nhs number to ring but i didn't ring it.

I always seem to suffer from anxiety more around christmas and the new year and sometimes do rash things like 4 years ago i gave my job up about 1 week after my 40th birthday and have been struggling to find work ever since .

I feel like going to live in a cave on my own even though i love my partner so much i just cant cope much longer

[claireius1976]

hunny get yaself to docs, even a short course on antidepressents would prob help and you can come off them. its not the end of the world there are so many other people out there feeling like you, talk to you your partner -thats what there there for. xxxx

[hairybiker]

Thanks for the comments i will go to the doctors again its not easy talking to them though

[Maya_dawn]

Hiya,

I know what you mean - first time sharing how you feel is always the most difficult. It seems like you don't know where to start and there are thousands of thoughts holding you back from sharing.

Keep at it, it'll become easier over time.

Take care.

[claireius1976]

if you have problems talking to them hunny- write it down, give it to the doctor trust me they wont mind x

[hairybiker]

I will write things down i just feel my life is going nowhere I'm self-employed which is probably the worst thing i could of done because if i don't want to get any work i just sit at home whereas when i was employed i had to make the effort to get to work everyday .

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Go see the docs and talk to your partner. You will feel so much better for it. When i first went to the docs i had got to a state of mind that said: I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF FEELING LIKE THIS. I'M WORTH MORE THAN THIS and if you look at yourself compared to some of the other morons in the world you will see that you are worth it. Actually telling the doc was like a breath of fresh air. Go for it we're behind you.