Hi - I know this is minor compared to what a lot of peoople are going through but - I had a really stressful couple of weeks lately - nothing really major, just "one thing after another" going wrong - now I've got the workmen in fitting a new bathroom. Now, i wanted a new bathroom, had to beg for it - I live in Housing Assoc property - so i REALLY shouldn't complain (since when did that stop me?) - but it's stressing me out. I can't blame the workman/men - they are great - they're not actually in my way - well, apart from the fact that, apart from a downstairs loo and tiny handbasin, i have NO washing facilities atm BUT I HATE workmen in the house - i know this is more to do with me than them, although, living in HA accommodation, I've had more than my fair share of problesm in the past. But when workers are in the house, I become virtually paralysed - there's lots of other things i could be doing, but i can't! I can't honestly say they're interfering with my "Christmas preparations" - cos i live alone, so don't really make any!
But the other night, I was SO tense I thought I'd jump out of my skin; I ached in every bone/muscle in my body - so much so I googled fybromyalgia in case i had that - when it was just tension I'm taking more diazepam than I should (though to be honest I'm not worrying tooo much about that atm - I mean, Im not overdosing!) The other night (felt a bit of an idiot at 60+!) but ended up lying on the sofa late at night, watchng brain-dead tv, and stroking a little stuffed toy a friend had given me (long story) It actually worked, i drifted off and felt better, but really scaring myself I did try (silly me!) to tell my sister i wasn't looking forward to the work being done, and she (Pollyanna II!) just said Still, it will be great when it's done, wo't it? For once, I did manage to come back at her and say Yes it will, but I don't know anyone who LIKES workmen in the house!
The joke is I'd just ordered myself a relaxation CD from an NHS source, but feel a twit playing that with someone banging and drilling above my head! Just really scared I'll lose the plot completely - think my GP (my old GP who was great has retired) has written me off as an irredeemable neurotic anyway!
Sorry maybe should have done this as a blog, but if anyone's got any words of wisdom/comfort, I sure need them now!