Does anyone else have changes in their behaviour due to anxiety and stress? I have health anxiety and blushing and feel quite stressed in generally bringing up my children on my own. I find myself coping ok, eating ok, not drinking alcohol or smoking cigarettes etc then I can just flip. My behaviour temporarily chnages, I decide to drink , smoke and not eat much. This can happen monthly or not for months on end. I have noticed a pattern with PMT. Although I get temporarily release from this , it is so not worth it as the day after I am so ill and anxious.
When it comes to things like this you hear people say it is self inflicted / only self to blame which adds to the guilt I feel afterwards. I think it is more complicated than that and something happens in my brain to make me act like this. Is it possible I have some sort of personality disorder ? Bipolar ? or is this just normal human behaviour? When I try to figure out why I do this I just come up with the theory that my brain associates booze and cigarettes to younger times in my life when out partying and relaxed.... stress free.
Don't get me wrong this is the last thing I want to be doing but its like the association must be there in my brain. I think I need to retrain my head into new associations. Can anyone suggest anything / therapies? My friends tell me to meditate but when stressed my brain says otherwise!! Feel a bit weak and pathetic really at times.
Can anyone relate to this as I feel there is something wrong with me. All I want to do is be consistent really and learn to handle stress before it takes over.
I hope this makes sense I am tired .....thankyou x