This is my first post on here and I thought I would share this with you.
I have been 'coping' with depression and anxiety ever since I lost both my parents in 1991 within 4 months of each other. Well that was the start of it, the trying to hold it together while my mum was ill, then my dad dying so soon after it. Anyway I had my first 'real' panic attack just before my mum died and can remember it like it was yesterday....every terrifying second of it. Ended up in A&E cos I thought I was dying and was given diazepam and sent on my merry way..then various different antidepressants since then. Upshot is I have been plodding along on Citalopram 60mg for about 10 years, then suddenly they had to be reduced to 40mg a couple of months ago due the heart problems it causes at 60mg. Along with my Crohns disease medication (steroids) underactive thyroid (levothyroxine 50mg) I have no idea what has caused this recent anxious racing intrusive thought crisis. I am off the steroids now, buy am considering stopping the levothryoxine as I think I am being overmedicated with them. I am tapering off the Citalopram over the course of this week and starting on Sertraline as they have been approved by a Psych my GP contacted. This has been a really difficult couple of weeks, feeling strange. depersonalisation, racing thoughts etc....
I have found this site which I found very useful and I also downloaded the book on to my Kindle and use it as a kind of bible just now, it helps get some things into perspective. I am sure many of you lovely people suffering the same as me will appreciate it:
much love and hope xxxx