I’m going crazy

[anon99]

I’m going insane. Panic attacks, depersonalization, derealization, ruminating thoughts, fear, impending doom. I’m sick of it. I’m so tired every day. Every day. Everything on repeat. Again, and again, and again.

[XoxoFaith]

Same here all you just posted is how I feel everyday

[anon99 in reply to XoxoFaith]

[jleebow in reply to anon99]

I know exactly how you feel. I am an amputee (40 yrs) and have cirrhosis 7 yrs.

Have been battling panic, anxiety, health anxiety for 30 yrs. Had it under control for several years with medication and seeing a councilor.

The stop drug craze hit here and the dr. and np stopped writing scrips to everyone. I made it thru that fairly well. Felt bad with withdrawal symptoms from the benzos i was on for so long but nothing is like the pure hell of panic attacks and health anxiety!

The depression has set in on me also in spite of still being on zoloft for yrs. My liver drs. Started me back on it. I have been on all the SSRI's over the years with little to no help.

I know the distress of what your going thru. The torment of this being a constant companion is awlful to say the least. One bad day after the other takes it toll

I wish you well in finding relief.

Im in it with you if you ever wamt to talk/write.

[anon99]

I’m so sorry. That’s how I felt yesterday. I just cried and let it out, sometimes it feels better after a good cry. I understand. When my anxiety clears I’m left with a dark deep hole of depression also. I’m here too, if you need me. I hope today is a better day for you and I. xxx

[Tranquilwaters]

Me too. Not helped by the heat either, which is a bad trigger for me. I've totally had enough. Sending a hug to everyone else feeling the same - it's really, really tough.😥💜

[anon99 in reply to Tranquilwaters]

The heat is horrrrrrrrrrible where I live. Ugh. I feel ya.

[Scaredalways]

I know the feeling all to well. It is a seemingly never ending situation. My thoughts and prayers go out to you.

[Blue_81]

Sorry to hear that anon99. I feel the same way just goes in circles. I’m tired of feeling this way and pretending I’m ok. Wish I could cry but even that I have trouble with.

[fib4]

i know how you feel it's an endless cycle you;re not a lone

[DuchessPancakes]

Sounds exactly how I felt last year. It was like it from the moment I woke up until the moment I went to sleep (although I did wake up in the night a lot) for months on end. But I can promise that it is possible to get out of it, or at least get some temporary relief.

I completely cut out caffeinated coffees and teas, which helped a bit.

And my doctor put me on propranolol (a very low dose but it was enough to teach my body that I could be calm), which was scary to take because of the health anxiety but definitely gave me some relief.

Therapy kinda helped, although I found that my school counsellor was far better than the NHS therapist I saw.

It’s really hard, especially when your brain doesn’t even register things as being real, but I promise that it is possible to make progress.

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I feel like everyone as well. I pray our days get better. It is bad to deal with these things especially during these uncertain times because it makes it harder. I started having these issues after i had my daughter 7 months ago. My son got very sick and i thought i was going to lose him and that same night i had my daughter. When I came home i was really sick and anxious found out i had gallstones. Started hearing voices telling me i would die in Surgery and such. And there have been times when i have heard voices in my head came true. I think maybe because i didn't change my behaviors that lead to the facts, but now my health anxiety has reached an all time high and i am afraid i won't live to raise my children. I don't know what to do. I contemplate whether it's my subconscious mind or if it will really happen.