Wish me luck

[anon99]

I’ve had a really decent past few days, I think today has been one of the best regarding anxious feelings and a few ruminating thoughts but I haven’t gotten stuck on any thoughts so far. I do have a doctors appointment in the morning and I am getting a bit anxious thinking about it, I seem to have an attack every time but hopefully tomorrow will be different now that I am calming down. Wish me luck tomorrow. Hopefully I won’t be posting early in the morning about being anxious... 😳 deep breaths.

[Agora1]

anon, sitting back and watching your posts and responses, I'm seeing

that your good days are becoming more frequent. Keep up doing whatever

is making this happen. I think it's your thoughts are changing for the better.

Good Luck tomorrow with your appointment. You've got this xx

[anon99 in reply to Agora1]

Ty Agora. I spoke too soon, I was fixing to hop in the shower and now I’m very anxious. For some reason showers really trigger my anxiety.. I’m trying to tell myself I am safe and showers are good. I think I’ll have to sit and and wait for a few minutes and just breathe.

I am trying. xxx

[Agora1 in reply to anon99]

Did you know it is very common for anxious people to feel like this when having to

take a shower or wash their hair? I've switched to baths which I find much more

relaxing. Just give yourself a few minutes to breathe and tell yourself it will be

okay. Because it will xx

[anon99 in reply to Agora1]

I never knew that. I wonder why.. I feel so strange having to sit here and calm myself before taking a shower unlike “normal” people. The fear is so real and the feelings of impending doom. My mind goes straight to “but I can’t see myself doing so and so after i shower” so then I think something bad MUST have to happen. I use to love showering and listening to music while in there. Sorry, I’m rambling. 😅

[Agora1 in reply to anon99]

Hi anon, I hope you got your shower in last night.

It won't always be like that. Once your anxiety calms down

you will be able to once again enjoy listening to music while you

shower.

What happens is that a shower may be too disorienting to the anxious

person, same as when washing your hair. It can feel chaotic as the rush

of water takes over and you feel less control should a "what if" moment

happen.

Let us know how your appointment went this morning. I hope it went well. xx

[anon99 in reply to Agora1]

I just had to hop right in and get it over with to be honest, but I got it done. I played music quietly to try and help relax or distract my mind.

My appointment went ok. (I guess)I got to see baby on the ultrasound- she was making a “sucking” motion with her lips. Too cute. I was really anxious though and my midwife tried to help calm me down and reassure me but it didn’t really work..

I’m just now calming down and laying in bed cuddling my pup watching some stuff on Netflix. I shed a few tears because I’m so sick of this. Today has not been good but it’s still early in the day so I do hope it will get better. Ty x🤗

[chavez13 in reply to anon99]

Congratulations on the baby. 💞

[anon99 in reply to chavez13]

Ty