Outside the Doctors

[anon99]

They open at 9 and my appointment is at 9 so I’m outside waiting. I’m pretty nervous. My chest and heart hurts and my arms are tingly and i need to go to the restroom. My feet and hands are sooo sweaty. 😳 I’m trying to remind myself it’s anxiety.. My mom came with me and she is grouchy this morning so it doesn’t help me feel comfortable at all.. I asked if she wanted to stay home but she didn’t want to. I’m not sure why she wants to come with me if she wants to be in a bad mood and quiet the whole time. 😔 anyways pray for me that I don’t drop dead in here.

[That_mountain_girl]

Hope your appointment went well and you feel calmer now.

Practising gratitude helps me. You are lucky you have mum who supports you and cares to accompany you. You are lucky you got an appointment during pandemic- I have been struggling for months to get face to face for other health reasons .

I’ve had these sensations and worrying thoughts in the past that I will die but then I learnt to not panic due to it and let it pass. Good thing about anxiety or panic attack is it comes in waves and when this happens - I observe and not let thoughts overwhelm me. It passes.

[anon99 in reply to That_mountain_girl]

Ty. I am lucky to have her! I’m sorry you’re having a hard time right now.. I’m learning to not panic slowly. It’s an adjustment not freaking out everytime I get symptoms.

[That_mountain_girl in reply to anon99]

Hi,

Didn’t know you are expecting. Congratulations and pleased to know you have caring midwife and good medical care.

Apart from calming exercises - practicing gratitude really helps. I basically write few things that happened well with me at the end of the day before going to bed and first thing in the morning I write about things I am looking forward for the day in a present tense. It’s basically similar to scenario building that we do with thoughts that makes us anxious but this time consciously training brain to build positive scenarios instead.

You have so much to look forward to. Just focus on positives. You are doing great 👍

Love 💕

[anon99 in reply to That_mountain_girl]

Ty. I also journal, so I will consider trying this- it sounds like a good idea. 🤍

[Agora1]

How did you do anon? xx

[anon99 in reply to Agora1]

i honestly was so nervous. I almost ran out to the bathroom to hide for a few minutes but I sat in the room and continued to try and calm myself. I got to see my sweet baby’s face and hear her heart beat and everything silenced. I felt calm. My midwife talked to me about my anxiety again she could tell I was on edge and told me some ways to calm myself- she reassured me again everything would be just fine. The table paper was soaked when I got up from how sweaty I was. (I was wearing shorts) lol. I also learned I have to stay for two days so they can observe the baby because my GBS swab came back positive so I’m nervous about the hospital stay.. 3 more weeks to go and she will be here unless she decides to come early.

[Agora1 in reply to anon99]

anon, it sounds like you have a great midwife who cares about you.

You did good in not running out of the room but followed through with

calming methods. I hope one of them was the breathing exercise.

You've been reassured by your midwife that you are going to be okay. They

are going to take proper precautions regarding the GBS results. You are in

good hands. Focus on that.

Three more weeks and you will forget the worries you had when you look

into your beautiful baby girl's eyes. Love conquers all. xx

[anon99 in reply to Agora1]

Yes I definitely have been practicing breathing she told me about last time. Ty for checking on me 🤍 Just know, if anything happens before three weeks I will be on here 😉 haha

[Agora1 in reply to anon99]

I'll be here as well...You have us going through this with you x