I am super scared

[ImHere_Again]

I had to stop taking my medication due to a new doctor. I have to wait to get permission from the new doctor before I can get a refill on my medication. I don't know if that is what is causing me to be super anxious. I feel like I am falling back into the dark place I was in before taking my medication. The unbalanced feeling is coming back and I don't know what to do about it. Last time I felt this way I was in a bad state of mind. Feeling like this reminds me of that and scares me so much. The best way I can describe the feeling is as if you were on a swing with your eyes clothes, you just want to stop but you can't. It's a constant feeling of unbalance. My legs get so tense and I just begin to move them and shake them a lot. Sometime my legs get sore from the shaking. That's exactly how I am feeling at the moment. My hands are shaking because I feel like I am going to have a full blown anxiety attack. It's the middle of the night and I can't seem to control myself. I am so scared. I am scared it's going to get worse. I don't want to make this a big dea.bI have been going through this for four years and I still can't control it or at least accept it. I don't know what to do at this point. Its currently late at night and I am scared to sleep because of I do and I open my eyes I will feel the room spinning. I really just want to cry.

[Plainejane]

I know it might be hard, but its going to be okay. The storm can't last forever, it will pass. When I feel like everything is crumbling around me I go outside and breath some fresh air. I also try to practice breathing technics. I've noticed that it helps my mind to get distracted and not focus on triggers and other worries. I hate feeling alone when I have an episode. Sometimes I try and watch nostalgic cartoons and even if I'm not fully watching them I notice it makes me feel calmer. The things I mentioned work for me and might work for you. Please take time to process your feeling but not let them overwhelm you. You have support *virtual hug* 🙂

[ImHere_Again in reply to Plainejane]

It's really hard to not think about my fear of anxiety. I does help me a a little to distract myself from my anxiety through online gamea or some TV shows. I forget for a second and then get back to reality. Lately it's just been getting harder. I can't sorry up anymore because I'm just trying to get through this. Either ways, thank you for the virtual hug, I really needed it :(. Hope everything is great with you <3