I dont know if I can handle working

I know everyone says you have to keep living your life with anxiety for it to go away, so i started "living my life" again even though i felt terrible. I got a job, started seeing my friends and family more. Well I've felt progressively worse since starting to be more active. I wake up every work day with so much anxiety it's insane. Every second of every day I am fearing for my life and my sanity. The anxiety is much worse than it was before. Maybe I'm just not well enough to have a job? I don't know. It's so hard because this job is such a great opportunity for me but I feel mentally and physically awful when I'm there. Also I've been sleeping WAY more because when I'm not working or seeing my friends I am just SO tired. I can sleep for 12 hours no problem after 5 hours at work. I just don't understand what's wrong with me but i definitely feel like im getting worse.

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I'm at work right now so ANY input would be appreciated lololol

[Sasical in reply to Hidden]

Anxiety is a bastard! It wants to keep you ill and at home so when you begin to do things it increases as if to say: if that didn't make you quit your job that maybe this will...Lol, I know I sound like a mad woman but it honestly works a bit that way. The only thing that works as far as I'm concerned is acceptance.

Accept that when you push yourself a bit more you will have more symptoms until you get used to it. And as Agora1 says it may be that for now sleeping, eating, hydration and work and may I add pooping to that

With time and above all ACCEPTANCE your anxiety should come down to bearable levels x

[Agora1]

Hi someone x There is really nothing wrong with you except for anxiety

being perched on your shoulder while you are trying to work. It's both

physically and mentally wearing for sure. At the beginning, it may have to be

that your daily schedule is restricted to sleeping, eating, hydration and work.

Give yourself credit in pushing yourself forward. I'm proud of you. I know it's

not easy. Keep seeing friends and family. Having positive support around you helps.

You're not staying stuck and that's a big step forward. xx

[Canmen]

What kind of anxiety to you experience? It so different from one to the other. Maybe you experience fear of failing? Performance anxiety? You can try to find out what kind of anxiety you are experiencing in order to do something about it. I wish you all the best, you are strong getting out there. And I envy you, wish I could sleep alot sometimes!