Just checkin in.

Just wanna say that life is the same shit...

But I'm gonna have some alcahol tonight because all this shit from physical symptoms to spaced out in my head, I have kids I need to provide for and anxiety is taken this shit away from me..so I'm celebrating just another day I get to live this life..even though it ain't goin rite atleast I'm still breathing..I know alot of people who just dont hit me up no more like friends and some but not all family members, even my wife she dont even sleep with me no more, I know she be drinking after work and all and it's all good, even if she got somebody else who's making her happy ..but yo it's all good though. I ain't mad , I know my condition ain't rainbows and butterflies and people ain't feelin this shit...but I'm about to change...look big change

I'm gonna put this into full effect , strick diet , exercise and god, and I'll get back to ya'll in a minute....in the meantime enjoy life ..🙏🙏

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It's all good, keep living ...any road blocks just run them over 🦸‍♂️

[Agora1]

Hi QUICH, it hurts a lot when we suffer physical symptoms, emotional distress and

look for comfort and no one is there. I don't think you really mean that you don't

care what your wife is doing at this time. It's more a feeling of frustration and inner

anger that you may feel on this disorder taking away you living your life.

I applaud you for now taking charge in changing your ways of approaching your anxiety.

Only we can do it. Medication, therapy can only help so much, the end result needs

to come from our going forward and no longer staying stuck. I'm not crazy about the

idea of using alcohol since it may exacerbate your symptoms. Be careful, stay positive

and look for the rainbow at the end of your goal. I believe you are on your way my friend

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Ya it's not that I dont care, but we need to accept we are not the person we used to be and that others realy do see this...but let's not look down about everything , we are to buizy focused on suffering and not taking time to live a little..

My drinking is not the same, I drank about a case of beer lastnite and didnt even get drunk or anything , I had a xanax 4 hours before drinking knowing I wont be able to take after drinking especially after all those beers..I still was anxious...anyways I drank because my head was so spaced out, I have random chest pains and so much pain around my back, and air hunger ...so I went for broke. ..medication therapy does help but it's a combo of exercise and healthy diet...

At the end of the day we just enjoy the moment

[SuZQ154]

Hey Quich! Sorry you are struggling. Your situation is tough!! Hey, there is HOPE! Sometimes we feel like we have to cover up are insecurities and disappointment with others by saying, "Everything is good" when really everything is NOT good. It sounds like you might be stuffing your sadness with alcohol?

Have you considered Christian and nutritional counseling? Would you be willing and financially able to do these? The accountability and new perspective of both might help you do what you said you would like to. "I'm about to change...look big change...I'm gonna put this into full effect , strict diet , exercise and god". Both have helped me in the past.

Blessings and prayers to you! Please keep posting.

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God is good, and I dont use alcohol for my anxiety , theres times my family would get together and we love to bbq and drink, but it's hard on the drinks now...i havent drank since then...but I seek guidance from god in 3verything I do . I know he is guiding me through a path . But I know the other part of it is myself. I need to put in work to. Like the saying goes you might be sinking but he wont make you drown...his hand is already reaching out for us , but at the same time we need to reach out to him ...

[SuZQ154]

So true! We need to reach out. to HIM and others!! Sometimes I am so stubborn and want to do it MY way! Yes, insanity..."Doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results."

Have you considered Christian counseling? Maybe doing something new will help to break old thinking and create new behaviors?