Help! I’m crying right now.

[Lancel370]

I have been suffering from aniexty most of my life. I can never talk to strangers are people I don’t know. It’s even hard for me to talk some family I haven’t seen. Even coworkers it’s hard for me to talk. I always been this way. And I have aniexty that won’t go away. I suffered all my life it seems like. Now that I am getting older it’s getting worse. Right now I thought I was gonna die I barely closed my eyes and it felt like I lost my breath and I thought my heart was gonna stop. I jumped up and start pacing. Now I feel shaky and dizzy and when I get dizzy I twitch my head. I don’t wanna die I wish god didn’t punish me and curse me with all this aniexty. It seems like god hates me cause everything bad happens to me nothing good ever happens. I take Paxil but that never helps. No medication seems to help. I tried them all for years but my aniexty won’t go away. I wouldn’t wish this aniexty on my worst enemy. I just want it to go away and I do t wanna die.

[kenster1]

hi sorry to hear that your having it rough hopefully you feel better soon.be assured that your ok try not over analyse any health issues because that will jut make you feel worse.its ok to cry let it all out.

[bbanxiety]

Breathe man.

It's horrible right, that anxiety you're experiencing right now. The way that it seems to trick you into manifesting your anxiety into physical symptoms.

Let's work something out for you, let's say for arguments sake that you'll never get rid of your anxiety and that it's going to be there forever. So that's the deal you've got.

Now, let's also make this a bit more difficult. Let's also suppose that your anxiety is an integral part of you that cannot be resolved. Whether you like it or not, it's there, everyday.

That's pretty bleak right? It sounds a horrible existence. Quite possibly the worst thing.

Here's the surprise, that horrible existence that was just laid out, is not going to happen. As much as you think it might or that it is happening right now, it isn't. Your anxiety is a part of you, but it not integral and you can get a hold of it.

I know this may be a very difficult thing to hear, but when you're fighting against anxiety, it will fight back harder. And I'm assuming it's something you've done for a long time, it's exhausting. For a week, try and accept it. I know that it's counter-intuitive but it's one of the main strategies that people don't utilise.

When your anxious, you're releasing adrenaline and your central and sympathetic nervous system starts to go a bit bonkers, but it's okay. As you start to embrace it you create a positive feedback loop and you start to retrain your body and your mind. The first time might be unbearable, I'll be honest, it was tough, but it's worth it because on the other side you start to get a semblance of peace. It'll be a little glimmer of hope, but this is your foundation on which you'll rebuild. That foundation will slowly become an attainable baseline that you can reach by accepting your anxious feelings.

When you feel it happening, or even if it's that dull ache of anxiety and hopelessness that lasts the day.

Don't fight it, breathe it in. It's not you and you won't be defined by it.

[Sana8]

Hiya, You are not on your own.You just need some medication and some therapy.Also,watch this video which will help you to understand your issue youtu.be/k3nYvdj3A7I(Not working as expected?)

[Careyon]

Oh my I can feel the anxiety through your post. I’m so glad to hear you say you don’t want to die because your presence is needed here. How do I know that? Because our merciful God has not called you home. You just have to find what that purpose is for your life. There’s someone that needs to hear your story. Maybe someone who needs your encouragement. It’s not be coincidence that you found this forum. Perhaps focusing on helping others in this forum will in turn help you. I don’t know the answers, but maybe something in the articles here will be helpful; list.ly/list/1CE4-looking-u... .