I think i may have social anxiety

From when I was 15 I was close to death I had a knife put to my neck and was told to give everything I have or I will die from then on I have been scared to go out on my own I have panic attacks I cry sometimes I think about killing my self and even to go to the shop it really scares me. when I talk to people I talk really fast and they don't understand me and I don't look at them in the eyes at all. I am now 19 and I really don't know what to do the only person I have is my partner and my mum I have no friends and I find it hard to even get a job because of how bad it is and I really don't know what to do as I can never get an appointment with the doctors.

[Ragdoll15]

Sounds like you are suffering with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Not surprising after what you went through. I can relate as many years ago when I was 19 a man tried to strangle me outside my home. I suffered with all the things you are experiencing but there was not the help like there is today.

I do advise you to make an appoint with your doctor as soon as possible then he will refer you hopefully to some sort of talking therapy (CBT) or administer medication if he thinks you need it. Good luck!

[Dolphin14 in reply to Ragdoll15]

Totally agree

I have ptsd. That's what it sounds like

Please see a doctor and get some help to work through the trauma

[Ragdoll15 in reply to Dolphin14]

Just seen your post. Thanks for your reply. I've never thought about getting help as it was so long ago. However it remains there just needs something to trigger it to bring it all back x

[Dolphin14 in reply to Ragdoll15]

Yes old traumas can come up years later.

If you notice things now I would recommend talking to someone.

Take care

[Ragdoll15 in reply to Dolphin14]

Yes, I think your right I will definitely look into it. Thanks for your concern x

[Kaykay98]

I honestly dont think you have a social anxiety problem i think you have ptsd ptsd is post tramatic stress disorder dont feel alone i have it really bad from my childhood it was almost as bad ad yours i didnt want to talk to anyone and i didnt want to eat go to school or even go out with my family my best advice is to just hang out talk tl someone about it like your partner or your mom or try to get an appointment with a councelor or therapist mine isnt completely gone but its gotten better i talk to my mom and my boyfriend about it and it really helps.

[Hidden in reply to Kaykay98]

I'm glad im not the only person that feels like this thanks.

[Kaykay98 in reply to Hidden]

no problem