Snap out of emotional numbness. Is it normal??

[chuck23]

Hi, my name is Chuck, i am 22 y/o and i am beginning my second year of college. For about a year now, i have been suffering from emotional numbness. It was like nothing was really getting to me, i was not feeling anxious, i was not feeling sad, i was just going through my day waiting to go back in bed. It was basically like being half dead. I was unable to feel anything, for example, when i was listening to a breakup song, i was not feeling sad. I couldn't relate to anything or anyone.

Today, for no reason, i snapped out of it but not completely. It is like waking up from a bad dream. I feel like i completely lost a year of my life being only a shell of the real me. I am really scared right now and need your advices. I am scared that i wake up tomorrow feeling like this again and i am scared that i might be going crazy, that it is the beginning of some type of psychosis. If you have gone through something like this, i would really like to have your advices.

PS: Sorry if my english is bad, i mainly speak french!

Thank you for reading!

Chuck

[Sunshine425]

Have you been on medication or switched medication? Has anything changed in your life? I had sort of similar experience but mine was coming out of depression. I was miserable and numb for YEARS. and now im crying like everyday...

[chuck23 in reply to Sunshine425]

No i have never been on medication! It really came out of the blue!

[Sunshine425 in reply to chuck23]

Aww I am so sorry. If you start to panick or feel anxious...Try to take deep breaths..... inhale through nose hold exhale through mouth. And distract yourself by calling a friend or loved one or watch tv or do something that calms you down. I had an emotional day today and didnt know what to do. But then my mom helped me sort out my thoughts. Tomorrow is a new day and there is always hope. Hang on. Keep me updated on your progress.

[Sunshine425 in reply to Sunshine425]

I am 31 by the way... and engaged...but sometimes I feel so desparate that a call to my mom is all I can think to do. You can get through. Sending positive vibes.

[Amz1987]

First of all your English is perfect

Secondly Im not really sure what to say, did something happen to you before feeling the way you did for so long? Eg death of a loved one, break up, illness?

Definitely see someone to talk to if you’re feeling scared and hopefully maybe someone on here might have some better advice.

[Moon_B]

Sounds like depression maybe? It doesn’t seem to be psychosis but I am not a professional. I know I felt this way when I was 15 for about a year and for me it was clearly depression.

Why do you think it might be psychosis? You sort of feel disconnected with reality?

If you do not see a therapist I would highly recommend you do. It can be a relief just to talk to someone neutral and get some insight. But this community is also a great help.

( my mother tongue is also French )

Bon courage, un jour à la fois. Essaie de parler avec un professionnel c’est vraiment l’idéal dans ta situation, tu vas y voir plus clair j’en suis sûre!

[chuck23 in reply to Moon_B]

Yeah i kind of feel disconnected from myself and the world around and i think that it’s the core of my problems... Thank you for the reply and your french is really good!!🙃

[Sunandrose87]

First of all you said you are in your 2nd year of college. For me, that was a stressful up and down emotional time. Your making new friends but you are also discovering who you are really is without the influence of others. Don’t be so fast to judge yourself as crazy. It takes a while to find your own rhythm or beat