Just Venting

[ImHere_Again]

Lately, I feel like my life is going through a transition. I am not sure if it's a good one or a bad one, yet. I have been feeling like I am not myself. I physically and mentally feel weak. I can hardly sleep every night. My heart feels like it's going to stop any minute. I have finally talked to my parents about my anxiety. They have both been trying to help me. I just feel like I am going through a transition in life. I don't know if I will feel like this for a long time or just a healing process. I feel tired of this now. Throughout the day I get thoughts of fainting which make me so nervous. Yesterday my mom had a prayer in our home. Many people showed up and my mom had asked them if they can please make a prayer for me. As I sat there and had everyone place their energy towards me I felt so calm. I cried a little because I am to a point where I don't know how long I can take this anymore. I felt better during the prayers and after. But today is a new day. I physically feel weak. I feel anxious, I feel my heart beating slow and I am afraid to move because I don't want it to beat faster and make me even more anxious. During the prayer everyone hugged me an I felt loved. It seemed like everyone cared. The man doing the prayer asked me to read a couple of versus in the Bible whenever I had these feelings. I am not really religious but I feel like this would help me to calm my mentality. Right now I feel like I am just a thing in the world instead of someone. I just hope I can get over this and overcome this by myself.

[lillyofthevalley37]

You are so lucky to have the prayer in your home and it helped you so why not make the most of it , you said u thought it would calm you down.mentally so go for it ?

You need to have a different attitude to your balancing issues an attitude that is less fearful and more helpful to you.

Hypnotherapy can be very good to change the way you deal with your anxiety but meanwhile you could build a relationship with God and Jesus

[Esther228]

Oh, my friend, I am so sorry that you are struggling with this anxiety and feeling like your life is so empty. I remember feeling that way a bit when I was young. I’d look in the mirror and wonder about the person looking back at me. For me, the thoughts and depression were because I was struggling to find out the reason for life. Like your Mom’s friends, I too found my peace and life through my relationship with the Lord. I know that you say you are not religious, but you can see how the presence of the Lord caused a peace in your life that passed all understanding, right? It is a real presence, and the Lord is someone you can tell all about your troubles. He is a good listener.

Have you tried listening to Christian music? I have found it to be soothing when things around me are out of sync.

I am so glad that you felt loved and cared for by the people who were praying for you. You are precious and your life matters. Have you had a physical? It may be good for you to have a checkup if you haven’t had one. I pray that you feel this virtual hug coming your way! I’m sure thinking of you.

[ImHere_Again in reply to Esther228]

Thank you so much! I felt better but now I don't feel very good again. I have had medication for a year but I have not taken it. Currently I am looking at my medication because I think I am to a point where I need to take it. I have been reading my Bible verses and to a point they do help. I have an appointment on Friday to see my doctor. I was supposed to be taking my medication but I have not. I feel like if I take it now when I am not feeling good I am going to blame the medication for any bad symptoms and that will scare me. I am just scared and can feel another breakdown coming inn. I really do appreciate your virtual hug because I really need it right now. Thank you and best of luck to you.

[Esther228 in reply to ImHere_Again]

Oh, I am so glad that you are going to see your doctor. I took medication for a while when I was suffering depression. I understood that my body was depleted and needed the medication to start to feel better. It helped me.

Please let me know how it goes for you. Keep reading your Bible! It will never fail you. There are so many encouraging verses in Psalms...and I like Proverbs, too. Of course, the New Testament is filled with hope and encouragement to keep the faith.

[ImHere_Again in reply to Esther228]

Thank you so much. It's just hard to read when you are in a middle of a breakdown. Still I try to. I really hope the medication works because I don't know what else to do.